I go through phases
They're transparent, a waterlike view
But at sundown, my eyes play tricks on me
Confessions spill out like a stream
Then, I remember, I'm in my room

I'm okay, I just need to breathe

I'm through waiting and breathing
Constant overthinking
Wondering where all my friends went
Some sick hide-and-seek game

Sometimes it's draining
Obeying and lost in conveying
Emotions that are overrated
Maybe I'm just escalating
Losing my mind in mental anguish

There's no way, I'm no coward
I'm no monster
Just a storm cloud
Striking myself like metal
It really sucks
Stuck on a coaster
With no luck
But I never claimed to be
Some hero
I only want people to rely on
Someone to trust

I wait til words are enough
In my mind, a speech erupts
Instead, I sit, eating paper phrases
Then throw them up
No soul has witnessed
The plaguing of my thoughts

I'll never explain them
You'll just hate 'em
Call me names and blame it
On false dreams
Brainwashed protocol
Comparing hard feelings
Too late to save this great depression
I'm walking down the alley of
Self-deprecating
I'll send you a postcard

Sometimes it's draining
Obeying and lost in conveying
Emotions that are overrated
Maybe I'm just escalating
Losing my mind in mental anguish

There's no way, I'm no coward
But, I'm no monster
Just a storm cloud
Striking myself like metal
It really sucks
Stuck on a coaster
With no luck
Cause I never claimed to be
Some hero
I'm my own worst enemy
I only want people to rely on
Someone to trust

Where did my sword go?
Where did confidence die?
I think I must find it
My bedroom likes to cry and
Fills up like a bath
I swim in it and bask
In waves of problems I caused
Where's my Oscar for that?

Where did my sword go?
Where did confidence die?
I think I must find it
My bedroom likes to cry and
Fills up like a bath
I swim in it and bask
In waves of problems I caused
Where's my Oscar for that?

When I'm in my world
Teeth smile on my ceiling
No one can hear my screams
They're stuck inside of me

There's no way, I'm no coward
But, I'm no monster
Just a storm cloud
Striking myself like metal
It really sucks
Stuck on a coaster
With no damn luck
Cause I never claimed to be
Some hero
I'm permanently stuck

Not a villain
But not a savior
No misbehaving
But I think strangely

I'm not a monster
Only a miserable cloud
An enemy for myself
But I'm such a good actress
Look at this smile
My mind reaches different heights than you
But I'll never claim to be God
Just let me speak my opinion now
Constantly stuck in a rut, with no luck

Electrocution is just so fun
My coaster's never done
No trust, not allowed
Cause I will never be a hero
I'm my own worst enemy
I'm definitely not a hero