*Y/N's POV*

I'm sitting in the car outside the house that my boyfriend, Jin, and I share. I was bawling my eyes out, again.

We just got into another fight because he wasn't coming home at his usual time anymore.

Also he kept reeking of alcohol so when I tried to confront him he blew up on me.

He always does.

He's not a very good listener.

I love him to death but I just wish he'd be the sweet, charming, flirty, funny guy like when we first started dating.

I'm two years younger than him, when we started dating I was 18 and he was 20. Now I'm 20 and he's 23.

When we met I was 15 so he was 17.

The other boys introduced me to him, because we all went to the same school.

I met Jungkook, then Taehyung, then Suga and RapMonster, then Jimin and J-Hope, and last but not least...

My ONE true love.

I sat there tears falling like a waterfall.

Only he can stop them.

My mind screaming but my mouth says nothing.

I need him here next to me.

To give me a smile, to kiss my forehead, to hold me, to say I love you, to laugh and mess around. But no...

He's not here.

And even when he's sitting right next to me, it feels as if though he was 1 million miles away.

I replayed what happened in my mind.

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Jin told me he'd be home around 7. 

Now it's almost midnight, he still wasn't home so I decided to call him.

J: Hierrrrr? (Hello?) ~He said sounding drunk af.
Y: Jin? Are you drunk?
J: Ummm no ~ He said something else but I couldn't make the words out.
Y: Jin you said you'd be home at 7.
J: I diiiiiiiiiiirrrd? What tirm is it? (I did? What time is it?) ~He slurred.
Y: Jin it's midnight! ~I rose my voice a little.

I heard someone talking to Jin, sounded like one of the boys. Then I heard Tae speak into the phone.

T: Hey y/n/n, yeah sorry he's drunk. We told him not to drink a lot, but he did. Oh and don't worry we're almost to your house to drop him off.
Y: Thank you! And there's no need to be sorry Tae. He did that to himself.
T: Alright Y/n, got to go. Love you bye. See you soon!
Y: Love you too Tae bye.

I hung up and let out a shaky breath.

When he's drunk he's either really sexual and sweet or he's really emotional or he's really mean and violent.

Most of the time it's violent and mean.

To be honest we've never done anything together.

The closest thing we've ever done is a heated make out session.

That's it!

We're both still virgins.

We've been saving IT for a special time after we are married.

About 15 minutes after Tae hung up they were here.

Tae was sober and he doesn't drink.

He had Jin's arm wrapped around his shoulder and was helping him walk.

"Hey baby!" Jin said as Tae brought him to the couch.

"Here drink this," Tae said handing Jin a bottle of water.

Then we both walked towards the kitchen.

"Thank you so much for doing this," I said to Tae.

He smiled, "No problem... What are best friends for?" I hugged him.

He hugged back and then we pulled away.

"He doesn't think you love him anymore," Tae said out of no where.

I froze, "What?"

Tae sighed, "That's why he's always drinking, because he feels your relationship is falling apart. He vented to me tonight, about EVERYTHING, he even told me you tried to leave him before."

I looked down and nodded.

Tae lifted my head up and gave me a "why" look.

"Because I feel like he never wants to spend time with me anymore. After a year into our relationship he changed. And that change wasn't good either," I explained.

Tae nodded then his phone buzzed.

He looked at it then back at me, "Well y/n/n I have to go. The boys and I love you so if you ever need anything... We're all here. I love you! Bye sweetheart."

We hugged and he kissed my forehead and left.

I walked into the living room and saw Jin crying, I didn't feel mad anymore just heartbroken seeing my love that way.

"What's wrong baby?" I asked and sat down next to him, then I put my hand over his.

He immediately jumped up off the couch.

He stressfully ran his fingers through his hair.

Then looked at me, with anger and sadness in his eyes. "You hate me... Don't you?" He said.

I shook my head with wide eyes.

Why would he ever think that?

I jumped off the couch and walked towards him, "Baby I would never hate you!"

I hugged him, I knew it was a bad decision but I did it anyways.

Then he grabbed me by my shoulders and violently pushed me towards the couch.

I screamed in fear.

"YOU'RE A LIAR!" He yelled at me.

I began to cry and softly shake my head no.

"Yes you are! You've always lied! I don't know why you chose me when you could've chosen Taehyung or Jungkook!? Why choose me if all you're going to do is lie!?" He yelled at the top of his lungs.

I felt mad so I stood up and yelled at the top of my lungs, " I chose you because I love you! You actually used to be nice, sweet, funny, and a good boyfriend! But now all you do is accuse me of things and make me feel worthless! You're the one who has something against me! I've always been supportive of you and the boys, and yes they're like my family, but nothing else! You're my one true love, I've always loved you sense the day we met but now I don't even feel like I know you! However I still love you!"

He had anger and sadness in his eyes, then he picked up a picture frame that held our favorite picture. Then threw it at me, I barely dodged it.

"Jin stop! Please!" I shouted.

"You lying slut! I bet you've probably hooked up with all the BTS boys haven't you?!" He yelled then picked up the gun we hid behind the plant on our mantle.

He cocked it and pointed it at me, I looked into his eyes it was like he was possessed.

They were all red and scary, full of sadness but was taken over my anger.

I began to back up but I tripped on the picture frame and fell on my butt.

I was pushing my self away from him. He kept walking towards me.

Then I hit the stairs and couldn't go any further. I held one hand up, then looked away from him.

I began to bawl my eyes out. I opened my eyes when I heard the gun hit the floor.

He looked at his hand like he just saw a ghost.

It's like the demon that possessed him flew away, now he's just shocked at what he did.

He slowly walked towards me, trying to apologize.

I became terrified and shook my head. I quickly got up kicked the gun away then ran to the front door and grabbed my purse and ran to my car.

Before I walked out there I looked back at him.

He fell to his knees and cried.

Right when I closed the door I heard him yell, "DAMN IT I ALWAYS LOSE THE PEOPLE I LOVE!"

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I just couldn't get what happened out of my mind, but I do know I'll have to go in there sooner or later.

Because he's my love and well I know he may not show it, but he loves me.

Maybe.

Well that's what I'm going to keep telling myself.

I got out of the car and walked towards our house.

I opened the door quietly, I closed it quietly too.

When I turned around I saw the house a total wreck.

Beer bottles smashed everywhere, couch cushions and pillows everywhere, and chairs tipped over.

I walked towards the stairs.

I then saw a red gooey substance on the stairs.

"I wasn't ever bleeding," I said with confusion.

Then I froze, "Oh no..." Then I sprinted up the stairs dropping my purse along the way.

"JIN!!!" I ran to our bedroom and saw him no where.

"JIN!!!"

Then I ran to our bathroom, attempting to open the door.

It's locked.

"JIN!" I knocked roughly on the door, "JIN BABY ITS Y/N OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE!"

I heard sniffles behind the door.

"Y/n? Help," I heard him say softly.

I began to panic.

I began to bash my shoulder into the door, yelling his name, "JIN!!!"

After about the tenth time I finally managed to break down the door.

I saw Jin.

Lying against the cabinets that are under the sink.

There was blood everywhere, I ran over to him.

I looked down and his wrists were torn up.

I began to cry, "Jin!"

He was about to say something when I ran into our room and called 911.

They said they'd be here in about five minutes.

I ran back to Jin, he was barely awake.

"No, no, no, no, no... Jin baby! Stay with me!"

He gave me a small smile and grabbed my hands that were cupping his cheeks, "I-I thought you left me for good this time. I'm so sorry Y/n! I DO love you, with all my heart. A-" he started crying, "And I don't know what came over me-"

I cut him off, "Shhh. Baby it's okay! I love you too! I won't leave you!"

I did everything in my power to keep him awake until the ambulance got there.

It's about 3 AM now.

I went to the hospital with him, they had to do doctory stuff so I had to wait in the waiting room.

While in there I was walking back and forth, constantly biting my nails and running my hands through my hair.

Crying most of the time.

At 5 AM I will call the others to tell them what happened to Jin.

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