I'M MAKOTO KAISER, I ACT AND FEEL SOMEWHAT THE SAME AS THE CHARACTER I WAS NAMED AFTER. I HAVE A SPLIT PERSONALITY AND GET OVER PROTECTIVE OF THOSE I CARE FOR.

   ONLINE AND REAL LIFE I'M CHEERFUL AND CHILDISH, I ENJOY BRINGING LAUGHTER AND JOY TO THOSE AROUND ME. I NEVER WORRY ABOUT MYSELF AND ALWAYS SUFFER THE CONSEQUENCES, I GET HURT IN THE PROSES TILL THE POINT IT AFFECTS MY MENTAL STATE...

   I GROW-UP LEARNING THINGS AT A REALLY YOUNG AGE, I LEARNED HOW THERE WAS MORE EVIL IN THE WORLD AND NOT EVERYTHING WAS HOW IT SEEMED. AT THE AGE OF 3 I WAS TERRIFIED OF EVERYTHING, I COULDN'T EAT, I WAS SCARED OF BASIC EVERYDAY ACTIVITIES. UNLIKE THE OTHERS WHO WERE CAREFREE I WAS CAUTIOUS OF EVERYTHING, I NEVER MADE FRIENDS I WAS PICKED ON AND MADE FUN OF, I WANTED TO END IT ALL.... AND I WAS ONLY A TODDLER.

  BY THE AGE OF 7 I WAS SUICIDAL, I WAS WISHING AND PRAYING FOR IT TO BE OVER. SADLY AS I GROW OLDER IT JUST GOT WIRES TILL THE POINT WERE I LOST ALL EMOTION. I ALWAYS FAKED JOY AND KEPT LYING TO OTHERS THAT I WAS OK, BUT MENTALLY I WAS IN HELL...

  AFTER YEARS OF THIS, I LEARNED THAT THIS WAS MY LIFE AND NO ONE WAS GONNA SAVE ME. TILL A FEW YEARS BACK WHERE I LEARNED THAT I COULD HELP OTHERS FROM FEELING THIS WAY. I DECIDED THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TO ME IS BEFORE I GO I'LL MAKE SURE TO HELP OTHERS OUT AND MAKE THEM SMILE.

  WHICH BRINGS ME HEAR... I'VE SEEN OTHERS THROW THEIR LIVES AWAY FOR NO REASON, I'VE SEEN OTHERS SUFFER AND ITS ALL THE SAME. IT ALL REPEATS, AT THIS RATE WE'LL JUST DESTROY OURSELVES AND THEN MAKE IT ALL WORTH NOTHING.

  I WANT TO CHANGE THAT, I KNOW MOST OF U OR NEW TO THE WORLD, I KNOW THAT EVERYONE FEELS DIFFERENT AND HAVE THEIR OWN OPINIONS ON LIFE, AND I KNOW THAT SOME COULD REALLY CARE LESS ABOUT WHAT I'M WRITING. BUT I COULD CARE LESS JUST HEAR ME OUT, OK!

  WE NEED TO STOP FIGHTING AND LAUGHING AT OTHER'S DIFFERENCE, WE'RE ALL HUMAN RIGHT? IF THAT'S WHAT YOU WANNA CALL IT. WE'RE ALL SPECIAL, WE'RE ALL DIFFERENT, IF WE FEAR OTHERS CAUSE OF IT THEN WHAT'S THE POINT? I'VE EXPRESSED THAT I WON'T LIVE FOREVER AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO GO, I'M MORE AFRAID OF OTHER'S WELLBEING EVEN IF I DON'T LIKE THEM. I'D RISK MY LIFE FOR OTHERS, I'LL PROTECT ANYONE EVEN IF THEY'D NEVER DO THE SAME FOR OTHERS.

I ASK YOU NOW, HOW WOULD YOU FEEL?