I apologize for the late update 🙏

Everyone has that special someone. That someone that'll make you feel loved. That someone that'll lend you a shoulder to cry on. That someone that'll make you feel like a someone.
Where's my own someone? Who will make me feel like a somebody?

Someone should save me from these monsters out to destroy. Rescue me from these devils after me. Revive me from all these negativity all around. Save me from these voices in my head.
I can't breathe with all this, someone please help me...

I'm begging and hoping for a hug, I just need someone to hug me and tell me that I am not as worthless as I think I am. Take my hand and lift me up, assure me that you will be there for me. Do that, before I drown completely, before it's too late.

Or at least, look beneath my facade and notice my broken heart. Look beneath my smile and notice that's a fake one. Give me a hug, it's all I need right now. Because I'm already tired, tired of wishing for a life I can't have, tired of being looked down upon, tired of trying, I'm tired of being tired.

What's my essence , if those around me don't care? I known for a fact that no one cares about me. Nobody not even you. I don't deserve to be cared for. I don't deserve to be loved. I'm forever a loner, whose only friends are those voices in the head that choose to torment me.

Do you know how hard it is to live a life like mine? Do you know how hard it is to be in the midst of negativity? The fact that I care the most and end up getting hurt the most. Noone can and will ever care about me. That's my destiny, that's my life. Maybe what those voices say is true. Maybe I don't really deserve to cared for. I think it's high time I accept the fact. That means that those voices are saying the truth, afterall ?

:-)~~~:-)~~~Extract from my Story "Just One Boost"