"Why run from me?  I'm in your head.  There's no where you can go without me right there with you. " She told me as I cried in my bed.  I don't want her to stay.  She wants to force me to do her wishes.  I never asked for her to be here.  "Stop crying you worthless shit head! " She yelled at me as I curl up in my bed.  Whimpering and sniffling.  "I never asked you to be here. " I said in a hushed tone.  "Speak up runt!  What did you just say to me? " She asked and leaned over me on my bed. "Why are you even here?  I never asked for you! " I cried.  She laughs at me like it was funny.  

"Why are you laughing? " I question.  She chuckles a bit more.  "I'm here because you're a scared little kid.  You need me.  Even if you don't see.  I make things possible for you* her demented smile scared me more than her being so close to me.  As if any moment she would wrap her hands around my neck.  Stealing the air from my small lungs. And she won't ever leave me be..  She moves her face closer to mine.  I move back to the best of my ability till she pins me down.  Fear strikes me.  Or is she the fear? 

 "how dare you think. I am the only thinking you can do. I make you who you are!" she yells in my face and my eyes go wide and skin pale completely. She is fear. Tears escape my eyes more than before. Her not really there body feelings like it's crushing me. My heart just stops. No more thump. no more breath. She fades away and I can feel it all come back to me. I close my eyes. I cry. The tears streaming down my face. Hiding in in bed. I just sleep. Knowing that I won't dream. Just darkness for a bit.. It's better than the pain I feel when I'm awake... 

And that's all I see. The darkness that hides me from the world. If only they knew. If people could see me like this. They could pitty me or try to help. When really I just need this sleep...