friends: i love you

me: :D

me, several days later: i wonder if that still stands,,,probably doesnt,,im so glad they literally want me to kill myself,,,

im a sad snake that needs validation but like a specific kind of validation bc im always afraid ppl are lying me to me when theyre like "but i love you dude!!" and that makes me nervous;;;

my number 1 fear is that ppl are just sparing my feelings and everyone is just lying to me about liking me to keep me content

im aware that's highly unlikely but,,ugh