"Anika I will tell this truth to you. You know what", he said and holded her more close . He holded her waist tightly. Hugging her close made him strong

Anika nodded

"You are the only one and will be the only one who will be aware of this . I never shared my feelings with anybody. It's just you because I love you a lot Anika you are my strength plus weakness. That Shivaay who is in front of the world is due to his childhood. Anika I do what I see. I mean I am like that because I learnt that. I saw these type of behaviour only Anika. There were many people in my life who... Who are the reason of this beasty nature. Who... Made me miserable", he said in low voice. He didn't wanted to cry while remembering his past. He started rolling her hair's him his hand in order to keep himself busy

"Hmm I can understand Shivaay. I am happy that you trust me and you are sharing your pain with me", she said and kissed his hand which was holding her hand. Shivaay left her hair's and holded her hand

"Yes that's because you asked and I can't say no.. after marriage I never hided anything rather than my anger.. Anika ..to be true it..  it was difficult in starting I mean Omru used to support me that's why I was able to control. You never made me angry much Anika but just think how much it's difficult to control your anger.. how much we have to bear just to control that. I .. lied too much just for hiding one thing that I can't get angry much.. if you would be in my place na.. then you would have become same like me" , he said sadly and chuckled . His voice was low showing how much his voice was breaking

"I can't become same like you. You are unique and best", she said and made him drink water by her hands while cupping his face.

He smiled seeing her care and her understanding level. He started her when she was doing that. He didn't needed water even if she is with him

"Were not you hurt after knowing truth Anika? ", He asked and Anika looked down to hide her tears. She clutched her dress tightly

He made her look at him with his hands

"You were Hana. I am soo sorry Anika. I didn't wanted you to see my anger ever... Because I didn't wanted to see that hate and fear in your eyes which everyone have", he said looking straight in her eyes. His voice was low as while telling truth he was feeling bad and he never wanted to see fear of him in her eyes whereas most of the boys want that. He cupped her face and wiped her tears

"Don't cry Anika .. Anger... Who can't get angry hmm .. it's normal Hana... I don't think we should think about that . For me the one who wins my trust is best.. and I try to behave real me in front of them like you Omru. And About Mom , dad , bade Papa , badi maa they were just behind my success. They used to fight regarding who will be the CEO of Oberoi industry

I mean like seriously we are one family.. which I used to think but this family was full of selfishness Anika...they just needed money

In childhood they sent 3 of us in boarding schools away from family... I took business leaving my dreams.. so that they won't force Omru

They never attended annual functions. In starting I used to cry when my classmates used to make fun of me.. then after some years I became habitual.  I was always left alone in class

I saw one boy who was my senior. He was ruling in his class I liked that and asked how did he did that. He told me  that I should ignore people and I should become rude.. people will be scared from me. I should buy fast food daily to tell that I am rich and they will come near me

And it really happened they came.
One teacher used to beat me Anika... Brutally whenever I do small mistake he used to beat" said Shivaay and wiped his fresh tears before they could fall

"Only you ... Or others too " , she asked and holded his face. She wiped his tears with her thumb

"For everyone. He was strict. He was good looking, punctual so he used to punish everyone for single mistake so I started hating him.. I was child Anika how can he do that with us.. I was brilliant child.. I used to top in class but he never appreciated anyone. Everyone was scared of him

I also took one decision to ruin him after getting power", he said with pinch of anger

"Y... you ruined him", asked Anika being scared and Shivaay smirked

"Yes literally.. he never came late. He was a good guy who never lies.. he was always true to his duty... I mean he was not a curueppt teacher but I made him", he said and gave a evil smirk

"How", she asked being shocked at his statement

"Firstly I buyer that school. My main reason was to or you can saw my main aim was to make him sit on his knees seeking forgiveness from me.

I have many people Anika so first they didn't let him go on school in time for one month. They used to come with many cars which used to become reason of traffic sometimes they used to come in his way.. this happened till one month

I used to scold and insult him daily after that I suspended him.. he knew it before that I did everything but he never bended", he said and Anika looked at him in horror

"Seriously Shivaay what...was his mistake", whispered Anika

"That ."

"That he was loyal? That he never bended which broke your ego.. Shivaay do you think you did right.. I don't think so. See without his mistake you punished him was that your revenge", asked Anika angrily and pushed him

"Anika calm down .. see it's past now. He is died now. I don't know how but he died so it doesn't matter... He was also the reason of my suffering Anika..I became what I saw ... My friendship was not good .. my teacher taught me how to beat how to get angry... When I got betrayal from my friend I... Stopped trusting anyone

I studied in boys school so you were the first one in my life whom I met. Who became my friend as well as love", he said and pulled her

He hugged her tightly

"Stop getting angry for strangers Anika.. don't you think if he could have told me to behave then I would be best.. my brother's taught me everything

You know what my dadi... She was angel.. she always supported me. She was the first one to love me but she left me ..this small child craved for love...for attention. I.. wanted them to attend my functions but they never did

I wanted them to praise me saying s.. Shivaay you did your best ..  I am proud of you ", said Shivaay In chocking voice. He was in broken state now

"You are best Shivaay. I am proud of you and you know what everyone is proud of you. Some are jealous of your success",said Anika and wiped his tear . Shivaay smiled and hugged her tightly

"Tell me now how can I show anger this girl tell me yourself now", he said and caressed her hair's

"Anika in childhood I.. never got happiness that child died in me after seeing ignorance. When I grew up I saw a boy beating people and behaving rude .. I regret that friendship which ruined me... That teacher everyone.  I hate them", said Shivaay whereas his tone was louder now which showed anger. Anika looked down to hide her tears

"Shivaay I am sorry I never realised that you suffered this much... You...were rich man but still you...", Said Anika while chocking in her words . She was crying while saying this

Shivaay hugged her tightly and wiped his tears

"There is more to it Anika . Nobody know about this .. I never shared this because no one cared actually. After dadi left you were the first one to care for me who was tensed when I was ill otherwise here.. nobody cares they used to give several medicines but not care that's why I tend to eat medicines. When you took care of me I got motherly love from you which I thought I will never get.

Anika how can people think that I should behave like a happy person when I am not.. the family who was my own family didn't cared for me. They just needed money they didn't trusted me .. then how can you think that I will trust other's

When my own family threatened me to kill y.. you when they got to know that you are from a middle class family then how can you think that I should not threaten people.

I got this habit from family and that friend whom I trained. Whom I thought that he is like my brother but he was my enemy he stabbed from back... Anika I am happy and jolly person in front of you only because this Shivaay had seen real world.

You cared for me . You always stood beside me . You always lightened up my mood and that is the main reason that I never got angry upon you. You did a lot for me Anika it's just my payback. You were the first one who treated me as human not robot", he told her truth while Anika tightened hug whereas he also pulled her more as they both were soothing eachother's pain

"Om and Rudra were my lifelines but they also made him a way to get rid of me... They always treated me like that Anika from school to till now.

I felt so angry when they talked about killing you if I didn't left you. Then I said that divorce procedures will take 6 months together.. I knew it before and was shocked when they handled me divorce papers ready.. how can they do that

For the first time I got happiness they can't snatch it from me. Whenever they used to see us close they used to glare me . They used to threaten me to stay away from you

That was it... Enough for me I threatened then using property.. I said that I will take 100 present shares and will leave them alone. I made Omru sign property papers without their knowledge. They trust me so they did and 100 present property was in my name

You know what happened that day na.. still only 3 people trusted me that is you Om and Rudra. Mon was happy that I cheated Omru wow", he said and chuckled

"I never cared about money my main reason was to get rid of threatening and I used same may . I became like them heartless like they were

I don't want Omru to talk with me because they may kill him

I knew it before after hearing about property they will leave and it worked they left", said Shivaay and sighed

He wiped his fresh tears which formed when he remembered past

"You can behave like real Shivaay. I can bear your anger", she said and made Shivaay put his head on her lap

"You never made me angry Anika. I am habitual. I was scared to loose you. You are my only happiness Anika dadi left me , Omru went and now I can't... I can't behave like old Shivaay with them. I miss obro moments. I used to feel bad seeing a happy family. We will make a happy family Hana", he said and Anika pressed her lips together to control her sobs hearing his side

He was containing so much pain. She wanted him to confess everything. She can't see him crying.. he is crying but still he is holding his tears which made her sad

"Yes we will" said Anika in low voice

Shivaay got up from her lap and kissed her forehead

" We will talk about this some or other day don't cry", he said with heavy voice his eyes were red . It were filled with tears but he was holding them because he didn't wanted to cry . He knew that after seeing him crying she will start crying

"Please I want to hear everything. You can cry Shi...Shivaay let this pain come out .. don't stop th...them these tears are your feelings.. you don't need to hide them.... to make me think that you are strong.... I know that... clearly that you are but you..... need to cry Shivaay.. these... little bit t...tears won't work . Once you will sh..are your pain it won't hurt.. much ",she said while crying. She was holding his face. She joined their forehead together

Shivaay started crying

"I love you Anika don't leave me ever", he whispered in tears and let his tears fall