I...I just wanna go and cry right now. I just wanna go and escape life. I don't like this one bit. I want help but I'm too scared people will reject me for me. I like the silence. I like violence...that is...nevermind.

They say they'll undestand but they won't. I know it. I've had...thoughts before. Weird thoughts. I'm forced to keep things I want to let out a secret. I have to keep my cry and my pain away from the ones I care about. They'd move away from me. I know it. People don't like me. I'm ugly and I know it. I never get enough sleep. I'm happy on the internet. It can make me smile even in my worst moments. I'm sorry I'm dragging you all into this. You can go now. I'll be fine...alone. I'm off to bed now. Bye...

Update: I just wanna die.

Update: It's all fake. All those fake smiles...It's all fake. Behind them it's just hate and sadness and death...

Update: I know nobody really cares...

Update: I'm useless...I'm worthless...my own parents don't care...