Life has handed me

a few heartaches,

a lot of goodbyes and apologies

but they don't come close to the loss I felt

when I looked into your eyes

and realized

they no longer had the sun in them

they only had infinite silence and cold

and you were smiling that same smile

but its not the same

I found all the heartaches,

goodbyes and apologies

in the vacant recesses of your eyes

staring back into mine.