you love her?

she's a girl
it's not allowed
but, I do like her
that's allowed

it is.
she's pretty

she's so pretty,
it makes my bones ache

with what?

that's not appropriate
but
 the other day she smiled at me and
I think I stopped breathing
I think she broke me a little

she causes you so much pain?

my chest aches around her.
I feel like I am swallowing dying stars.

maybe you should like her a little less.

yes, that would be the sensible thing to do.
and yet.

and yet?

it feels like I  could bear the pain
over and over.
every second I am with her, I can bear the pain
every second I am with her, it hurts  less

that sounds an awful lot like love.

it could be.

you're not scared anymore?

she makes me brave.

• i could not find out who wrote this •
• it is so beautiful, and every time i read this, it resonates deep within my bones. here's to wishing the world could be more accepting •