You know those post that "if your reading this right now then you've made it through a lot of bullshit and hard time" type shit I say to myself barley fuck like life is so fucking hard at them moment but one step a day right like I be taking 10 steps forward and 9 steps back like life really don't love me right now the other day my friend said she wished her life was fine but the word "fine" does not mean shit to broken people who have lost everything and that have been mentally and emotionally broken because we will never be fine that word doesn't imply for us you know because it will never but we can't look back at the days we were ok before you self harmed before you were depressed before you were sexually abused before the drugs took over your life because that's not you anymore you will never be the person before life ruined you cuz you will never be able to actually be that person again ya know so stop and be the after you before those shitty things happened.