I honestly can't even remember a lot of my life I started using drugs and then I couldn't remember anymore I still can't I hate my life almost always I just want to be with someone who loves me for me and who I am but I don't think I will ever have that it sucks

I was molested when I was probably around 7 or 8 I don't even remember who molested me then when I was 11 to 12 I was molested again I never told anyone who did it or that I was molested but I was and I feel so shitty every time I could've said something I wish I would've told someone my sister was molested my best friend was raped and I never told them till a month ago and when I told them all I wanted to do was get high and fucking kill myself because I was done with my life and everything I am going to report what happened to me and it sucks cause no one should ever have to go through that and me and my best friend talk about it we notice that it was a little after we got molested we started getting in trouble I gave up on my life and I never wanted to talk about it but all I wanted was for someone to be there and say it's ok and that would've been all I wanted but I couldn't have that I done so many bad things in my life and all I've every tried to do is help people but it's like I can't even do that anymore I just got to mentally drained that I couldn't anymore
(But if anyone ever wants to talk like text me)
I am bi I choose not to really tell anyone but I wish I had confidence to tbh.

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