Over it over trying to be a good person trying to be a friend to people they say they care so you open up to um and they say "damm I'm sorry that happen" act like they care for you and wanna be your friend but they really don't thought that drama shit was over with and in the past Na hate when people want to add me to there rumors and blame that shit on me like I'm done I don't care anymore I just want to be left alone all my "friends" have always left or done me dirty and it keeps on happening over and over again I let them back so they can break my heart some more thought they had my back really shows me that the only one who had my back was me and it really about to only be me because i don't want friends anymore I tell them I'm going through shit fighting my demons I'm done fighting I'm done getting into arguments to clear my name of shit that I never said or did about to let that shit be people can think what they want of me I know what I have done people want to believe all this shit about me go ahead because I'm done about to keep silent and to myself only people who have had my back and never left was my family I'm losing everything I have slowly about to probably lose my freedom have lost that shit to many times it's dumb founded as fuck I hate losing my freedom and everything I worked hard for I've been sober I've been staying out of trouble I haven't been on papers or in the system over a year because I wanted to be better for myself and for the ones around me and I tried so fucking hard to do this shit by my lonely funny how I've done that myself without anyone this depression shit taking over my emotions taking over and I just wanted to have a good day and get my shit done and go home but that can't ever happen people just have to keep my name in there mouth really want to fucking just give up and do a lot of drugs and end this shit so I don't have to go through this shit over and over and over again ya know because that shit really hurts I was being real I wasn't throwing all that shade about others and shit but whatever I guess it is what it is😴🥺🙄