<<<ELSA'S POV>>>

I haven't eaten in days...I don't want to eat. I just want to sleep for the rest of time. Tadashi...he's gone...he left. He left me here with my heart in pieces...I haven't left my room once. I don't need to, I've had sips of water from the glass that sits on my bedside table. My house is just pitch black, I haven't bothered to charge my phone or anything.

"Elsa?!" Someone called from outside.

My gaze didn't break from the empty white ceiling. I don't care, I just have no energy anymore. Tadashi's gone...Anna hates me...my friends? Are they even my friends...?

"Elsa! Come on, please!" Someone called again.

The voice must be a shout but to me? It's faint, my hearing is faint. I don't want to get out of bed. I'm just...too upset and exhausted.

"Elsa!" Someone called again.

I just closed my eyes and continued to do what I have done for the past few days, just cried. I haven't any reason to be happy...I don't pay much attention to my surroundings, but I could hear the door handle going mental.

"Elsa, unlock the door!" Someone cried.

I didn't care that someone was crying, I didn't really care...I just want to sleep for eternity. Tadashi is gone...he's not coming back. I closed my eyes and cried even more. Even though, my eyes were closed, someone turned on my bedside lamp and gasped.

"Elsa! You look so pale!"

I didn't focus my vision, I couldn't really because of the tears that just welled up in my eyes. I feel like crap and I don't really want to face anyone. I just want Tadashi back, which will never happen. I love you, Tadashi!

"Elsa, get up. I need to look after you, you look horrible!" They said filled with worry.

I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer, I just let the darkness rush to me and I fell into slumber. I opened my eyes after hearing a crash from somewhere. Not that I was much bothered, it just awoken me. I sighed and once again closed my eyes.

"Elsa..." I didn't respond with eye contact, movement just anything. "Y-You need to eat!" They said desperately.

"I don't want to eat now, leave me alone..." I said blankly.

I turned over onto my side and stared at the blank wall. I still didn't really care to recognise who it was trying to help me, I just really don't give a damn.

"Elsa, please...for me?" They whispered.

"Who even are you?" I asked blankly.

"Wait, what?! Elsa, have you hit your head?!" They asked panicked.

"No, now who the heck are you?" I asked again.

"Elsa, it's me! It's Mama."

Mama? I didn't really do much else, she sighed and started to fix up my house. She left me in my room alone. I really needed to use the bathroom, so I got up. I feel like crap, but I really don't care...I did my business and went back to bed.

"Elsa, I have made you some chicken soup. Your favourite, remember?" Mama said hopefully.

"I'm not hungry." I whispered.

She sighed once again. She left the bowl on the bedside table and walked away. I turned back to looking at the ceiling.

"Why, Tadashi...? Why did you leave me here?" I cried.

It's now the day of the funeral...I don't think I can do this. Tadashi meant the world to me, he made me smile, he was the perfect guy! Now? Now, I'm alone again...I got up out of bed and walked into the bathroom. I guess I need to have a shower...I had a brisk shower and dried my hair. Looking at myself in the mirror, I could see that I looked like a zombie. 

"I can't be bothered for my hair and make-up..." I sighed.

I styled my hair into its signature french braid and walked back into my bedroom. I turned on the light and walked over to my wardrobe. I'm going to use the clothes that I bought for the funeral that I'm going to in Norway. Tadashi meant a lot to me, so I'll wear this for his funeral...I put on my black skinny jeans, black strapless vest top, black silk see-through top, black heels, black shoulder bag, gold black drop earrings, black sunglasses and dark red matte lipstick.

"No point in putting on mascara, I'll be crying through the whole thing no doubt," I whispered.

I grabbed my keys and walked outside. I didn't speak to anyone, I saw Penny and Ellie together. They called me, but I ignored them got into my car and drove off to Tadashi's home...what was Tadashi's home. Many people were there from family, friends to business partners. I left my car to the side of the road and approached.

"Elsa, how are you?" Someone asked.

Once again, I ignored them and walked away. My pain is just too real...time cannot erase the pain that has been caused.

"Hey. I'm Gogo...you'll be in the car with Hiro, his parents and us." The girl Gogo said.

I nodded blankly. Tears just wouldn't stop falling, my tear ducts aren't rusting anytime soon. All I am capable of doing is crying, crying for the man that I lost. The man that I love...why did I have to lose him? It was open casket, I saw his face...so pale, drained from life. I cried and gave him one last kiss, wishing to get a response back. I didn't get a kiss back. This caused more tears. As soon as the service ended at the church, I ran. I didn't bother to jump in any car, I ran and ran. I was at the swing where me and Tadashi first kissed. I cried even more, I love you Tadashi.

"Why, Tadashi?!" I wailed.

The once beautiful swing that looks over hills and fields, now looks like a ghost town and horrifying. It reminds me of something out of a horror movie.

"Goodbye, Tadashi Hamada...I love you." I whispered.

I had to bail out on my friend's father's funeral...I feel bad, but I just lost the love of my life. How can anyone be okay after that? It's madness on how a person can hide and hold back so much stuff, until they eventually break. I walked away from the hill taking one last glimpse of the swing. I won't be able to come here now, the memories will only pain me for a while. The rain was picking up dramatically, only I didn't care. I cried in the pain, I'll never love again...people had umbrellas, people were driving their cars, people were sipping coffee in cafe windows and then me? I was out in the rain crying my eyes out, grieving for my lover's death.

"Hey, Miss!" Someone called.

I didn't really care about my surroundings, they aren't calling me. I don't want or need to be bothered at a time like this. Don't people get that?

"Miss!" Someone called again.

Is this going to turn into some mushy Cinderella 2015 stuff now? If it is, leave my presence and don't return! That's just a warning. I continued walking away, I don't want to be picked up. I want to disguise my tears in the rain.

"Miss, are you okay?" They asked again.

"Just leave me alone!" I cried heartbroken.

They did indeed, leave. I recognised that voice, but who's voice was it? I really don't know...I didn't see them. I wonder who that actually was? I know that it was a male, I just don't know whom, but I definitely know them. I'm now at home, the funeral killed me. Oh, Tadashi...why did you have to leave me? I miss you! I miss you more than words can possibly express and describe.

"Why did he have to leave?" I whispered.

I leaned again the front door and slid down it in tears. He's gone...he's gone forever and I won't get him back...I love you, Tadashi...please come back. I beg you, please just come back!

Knock. Knock. Knock. After I heard that, I locked the door by the latch. I don't want any visitors today, I'm not in a very good state.

"Elsa?!" Someone called through the letter box.

"Elsa it's me, Michelle. I heard about what happened...I'm so so sorry, Elsa. I can't imagine what you are feeling right now..." Michelle said.

Michelle is here, why? Come to hurt me more? I just lay on the floor, emotionlessly. I don't have the strength or energy to anymore.

"If you need me for anything! Youjust text me or ring me, Elsa. I'm one call away..." She sighed.

With that, she left. I want to grieve by myself. I just can't be seen like this. I'm just going to go emotionless, I need a couple weeks to heal up after all this... People were coming over everyday trying to get me to come out of my house, I refused. I didn't want to leave my house, I have no reason to anymore. Maybe work will distract me? It normally does...I'll go back to work when I am doing the big business deal with Frost Industries.

*A couple weeks later*

My catering business has been busy, whilst I was away. People have noticed that I've changed dramatically. I no longer talk to anyone on the phone anymore and I don't want to grow attached to someone again.

"Have everything perfect for this event!" I said strictly to my workers.

They all looked at me in shock. This is the first time they are seeing me since the big break, well they have a new boss now, a different me. I will not have them slacking on their butts and joking around!

"How are you, Elsa?" Tiana asked.

I glared at her and she flinched. I ordered her to get back to work and to call me boss from now on. She had tears welling up in her eyes, but I didn't feel guilty. My grief is killing me slowly inside.

"Listen up everyone, this is the biggest business deal ever. No fooling around and all that nonsense. Otherwise, I will not be one bit happy! Consider your jobs gone if you mess up!" I hissed.

They all nodded quickly and quietly got to work. I began to do some food myself. Life stinks...it's just all so painful. Once you find something good, it just suddenly gets taken away from you in a sudden heartbeat. All the food was done perfectly - I am helping my workers take the food out to the big table in the middle. First, Naveen and Tiana are putting a tower of champagne glasses stacked up like a tower. Then, everyone else is placing food around that. Now I'm waiting at the table for everyone to come back with more of the food. A guy wearing a tux with pale skin, blue eyes and white hair sits on the table.

"Could you move please? Food will be going there," I asked through gritted teeth.

He had this sudden smirk on his face, like he were trying to make me melt. I gave him an unimpressed face, which made him raise his brow.

"I'll move, once you give me your number or you accept mine." He winked.

I felt my anger boil. Is he serious?! I had the urge to smack him, but I didn't. Lucky for him, stupid idiot. Don't cry, don't cry...just respond with sass.

"Sorry I don't do arrogant jerks." I said, rolling my eyes.

He was shocked at my response. Good, I don't do arrogant jerks. Never have and I never will, Tadashi was the guy for me before I lost him.

"Whaaa? Do you know who I am?!" He exclaimed.

"Yeah, one pure arrogant jerk!" I scowled.

I walked away leaving him dumbfounded. Everyone else come back out with the food, I grabbed the last plate and put it on the table. Thankfully, that arrogant jerk wasn't still there. I have seen him before, but I can't quite put my finger on it. I can't be bothered to think and remember who that idiot is. My head is all over the shop. He could be anyone! He could have been someone from my old cookery class, ice-skating class, gym, coffee shop or anywhere for that matter. I just hope he isn't someone serious like an A celebrity. Nah, he is probably a spoilt little rich kid. That wouldn't surprise me in the slightest.

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Hi guys 😊 Here is the new chapter! 😁 Elsa is really depressed over Tadashi's death, huh? 😔 She loved him? 😱 People are really worried about her 😔 Yet again, Michelle is back on the scenes! 😐 Will Elsa forgive her? 🤔 Elsa has turned cold as ice, eh? 😔 Oh, I wonder! Who on Earth the guy with the snow white hair and cyan blue eyes could possibly be 😂 I hope you enjoyed ☺️

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Leah'xo