So hey guys... I kinda came up with an idea, and I think it's a good one. (not really fun for me but I should still do it) So I am gonna introduce myself as Lainey on the first day of school. Because for a few reasons, 1. I want to make sure I really want this. And I can't go back and fourth with names and pronouns. 2. I might slip up and say when someone asks for my name I might slip up and say Lainey. 3. I need to get used to it, before I was having major anxiety about even thinking of going into a different bathroom. So I want to practice in public places and stores. Instead of the women's I go in the men's. So I can get used to it and not have a panic attack at school. 4. I want to make sure I actually look like a male because at school if they think I'm a girl and I go into the boy's... Eh I don't want that to happen. So if someone comes up to me when I'm walking into the men's saying I look like a girl... Then I need to change something.

So I think I'm gonna do that for a year, (or six months if I decide I'm comfortable coming out at school). So I think it's a good idea, and I'm gonna make myself do it.

Okay I'm one with that speech, I'm going to the thrift store today an tomorrow. So I can buy new clothes for school (in five days), I'm still going to buy boy's clothes. An just leave the name thing alone. So I guess I'll look like a boy, and have a girl's name....Whatever. I know I'll have won something if a classmate is like "you look like a boy, but Lainey is a girly name."

I'm also gonna ask my mom about the "idea for my haircut". I have no clue if I was dreaming her saying that or not but ima ask...

But anyways hopefully today will be good, I'm already sorta stressed out. But whatever. Bye shnays!