So here's a little bit about myself

Ok so some of us have been to highschool done that thing and moved on well. Every now and then I remember the projects.
I was absolute garbage! Mkay?!
So here's how it was,

I would go into class and receive a project right?
And projects were test grades yea? So here's the thing. I loved solo projects!
I could procrastinate until the last day and crank out 2 weeks worth of work in under let's see...
Get home at about 4:30 play games until 5:45 or so maybe 6 and just sit on my bed awake all night making "the dream" happen. Study something, write it out, etc... Simple yeah?
Well sort of.. yeah.
Now you know how rush work doesn't get the pretty points right? well.  I always managed to get 70 or higher, Which always amazed me to no end.

Or I didn't care and got a 20 or a flat nothin.
*Chuckles* ahh good times....... I was always in toutoring
You know.. redoing homework trying to bring my grades up to passing all that nice jazz.

Now group projects. That's a different story I hated people, but I never let a group down. I knew it wasn't just my grades that were in the pot so. While others were doing the main parts of the project, I was tidying it up and making it look pretty. Or vise-versa.

I was a pretty good team player when I came down to it. 

Though WHEN it came down to it I never felt like I contributed much,
Sometimes we got sheets and we're tasked to grade how we worked with our groups. I would always write 100s for my my group and like a 50 or below for the bit that asked how I thought I did

Don't feel bad or anything, I just always thought I could have done more.
That's I think that's why, I didn't like people for the longest time actually.
It left me... Wanting.. no.. needing to do more. I felt like when I worked with a group I worked better and harder than I did by myself.
I guess maybe I... liked people seeing me as an underachiever. I appreciated my privacy.

Fell in love, broke apart, don't care to elaborate on that any further.

But then covid hit.  
I... Am... An... Introvert.....?
I...
I think-
I think I started...
To miss-
seeing people.
Not just through a computer screen,
But... people face to face, what people consider comradery and companionship (but not any sort of dating)
I felt sealed off from the world, and for once I wanted out.

I wanted to do something other than play games, something more than stay home and study.

I missed prom, my whole class did
Well not that I missed anything personally, but I know it meant a lot to a school full of people.

I made myself and my mom a promise during the quarantine. That I would try to be more outgoing and try to talk to people.

My teachers were awesome.
They were understand and I managed to pass the great, big, bad HS.

I work on talking to people, sometimes I practice with myself. Kinda like how it you've ever played sims and worked on a sims charisma in the mirror. 

Things may not return to normal anytime soon. And I know that it won't start or end with me.

This has been a little bit about me
Josh, H the semi-introvert.

Also if your still hanging around despite me not being very active at all.. thanks!
it makes me feel great in ways you can't imagine.
I do have something In the works
That I'd like people to see I am just really struggling with it.
One moment I'm trying to sleep, the next I'm trying to write down an idea and it vanishes.
See you... *Light chuckles* eventually if not soon.