dear diary

i don't believe in true love.

or love at first sight.

i kinda think that's normal, these days.

and no, i don't have a sob story to go with these declarations- it's only because i've seen the damage "love" does to people.

how the girls cry in bathrooms, hurt themselves, stop eating.

how the guys play with their minds, give up on life, become all listless and lonely.

it's just... a mess.

and i hate that.

but. why can't i stop wanting it??

i want love- i want the comfort of it, the warmth of it, the sweetness of it. 

i want that mutual affection, care, and trust.

i want to give someone all of me.

and hold their heart in return.

with much love,

leanne