right now, we were all sitting down in the practice room taking a break.

seokjin hasn't talked much today.

he probably felt heavy having to hide our secret.

despite the fact that he was bothered by having to hold it in, we knew he would.

jin was the kind of person to look out and take care of others.

it was just his nature.

"can i read your lyrics?" jungkook played with my hair while i was laying on the ground.

the room seemed to silence.

i bit my lip looking up at him.

"my lyrics?" he nodded.

"jin hyung said you were writing lyrics last night with yoongi hyung." my eyes shifted to the blonde.

seokjin looked away, not wanting to make eye contact.

"they aren't that good, jimin sucks at it." yoongi crossed his arms.

"you guys are talking again?" hoseok took a drink from his water bottle.

i nodded.

jungkook stared down at me with an expressionless face.

i looked at taehyung sitting on the other side of the room with his headphones in again.

he was such an energetic, amusing person, but right now he looked depressed.

i knew why.

i just wished jungkook did.

"hey." jungkook gave me a smile as i called to him.

"yeah?"

"why don't you go sit with tae?"

he furrowed his eyebrows.

"because i want to be with you." his hands stopped running through my hair.

ouch.

seokjin sighed at the words.

"jungkook, he looks lonely."

"and i'm lonely without you."

this was starting to get tiring.

i wanted him to be happy, yet he was doing everything possible to ruin my plan.

jin stood up walking out of the room.

yoongi frowned standing up too.

"come on." he grabbed my hand, leading me out.

he looked like a mess.

"how can you do that to him? he clearly cares about you."

"i promise you i am not doing this to hurt him. if he's with taehyung he'll be happy."

he gave a bitter laugh.

"then why are you going behind his back? why can't you just tell him."

"he'll be even more sad if i just say i don't want to be with him. if i start pushing him away, he'll get angry at me and tired and will want to break up on his own." i held jin's hands so he would calm down.

he rested his head on our hands for a bit.

"i'm not asking you to lie for me, i genuinely love him, but he will never be happy with me. if i really want him to smile everyday and play like he used to, he needs tae."

seokjin nodded, agreeing.

"alright."