I'm not going to call Kyle today.

I'll be fine.

Like always.

My phone lies desolately on the floor. It's so hard not to pick it up, so hard to resist it.

But I guess that's what I always say, every day, trying to be strong when I know I can't always be strong.

It lights up, displaying the time and the trillions of hate messages. I know it'll just be the same as always. Every time, always the same.

The same words told in every possible way. Paraphrasing.

But the temptation is the same as always too. The compelling feeling that forces me to pick my phone up, scroll through them but never answering.

Because I want to know what people think of me, even though I could tell you everything that's written there before I even picked it up to read those stupid texts, stupid posts, stupid comments.

Amy lol she's an idiot

She's so stupid

She deserves to die

Go to hell Amy

Amy's so fat and ugly I can't even look at her

What do you expect? Her mom's dead and her father is an alcoholic

I know right?

She's such a waste of space in this world

We'd all be better off without her

So true

I grit my teeth together, forcing myself not to cry. Forcing myself to ignore this. Ignore everything.

But that tiny tear still slips out and falls.

I make no attempt to catch it before it crashes to the ground.

I let it fall.

I let it fall like rain, I let it fall like my feelings. Like me, floating down, giving up...

I angrily pick up my phone and through it across the floor. The screen cracks, and I slide down the wall face in my hands and land with a thud back on the floor.

I'm so far down from the world, from happiness.

I change my mind and try to find the rope to climb back up to happiness. The telephone.

I dial and call.

Tears run down my face and I can't help but wish the person living this life wasn't me. That this was just a terrible nightmare. That I would wake up and all this would be over. Gone.

But it isn't.

It's reality.

Author's Note:

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dreamer