Sinner

You don't know my life story
You've noticed I've been acting differently
These pages are gonna cut me deeper than a onion
You won't feel my pain
Weed became the love of my life

You claimed you don't wanna see me go
Yet I'm always the only one crying
Lately I've been feeling numb
These demons never gonna leave me alone

Temptation is tempting in my times of need
Suicide might be a sin to you
But might be the blessing to my pain

Lord please forgive me
I don't know what I've done to deserve this
Never a day I don't wanna cry
Never a day I don't wanna die
Oh god!
Just close the door and let me end my pain
With a gun or a blade
Let me go

I'm banging on Heavens door please let me in
But you won't let me in
I don't wanna be here for another second

Am I sinner in your eyes of hate
Or a broken child in this world of fake friends and love?