(Part 1 of Michaels end)

1 & 1/2 years have passed you are in 12th grade. With Jared. You had a job as a waitress. But you got bad news. You were moving back to New Jersey. Where Michael was.

Jared was walking towards you waving. You remember how sweet of a guy he was...

Yes I said WAS.

"Jared...I have some bad news..."

"Spill the news!"

"I...I have to..." you stared to burst into tears.

"I'm moving!" You finally said.

Jared looked at you with his kind eyes.

"No...you you cant be..."

"I'm sorry Jared! But... that's just how it is!"

You both were crying now. You hated it when Jared cried.

"I'm moving in 3 days." You said.

"At least we still got some time."

"No...we really ...don't. Today's my last day... and tomorrow and the day after I'm packing."

"What?" No wait!!!"

You gave jared a look of pity.

"I still haven't been able to ask you out! This...this can't happen y/n!"

We walked to school. And then gated asked the question.

"At least you will have Michael."

"HOLY SHIT YOUR RIGHT!"

"Yeah."

"When he sees me... what will he say?"

"I don't know."

I stick with real things
Usually facts and figures
When information's in its place I minimize the guessing game
Guess what?
I don't like guessing games or when I feel things
Before I know the feelings
How am I supposed to operate if I'm just tossed around by fate?
Like on an unexpected date

With a stranger who might
Talk too fast
Or ask me questions about myself before I've decided that
He can ask me questions about myself
He might sit too close or call the waiter by his first name
Or eat Oreos
But eat the cookie before the cream but what scares me the most...
What scares me the most...

Is what if when he sees me
What if he doesn't like it?
What if he runs the other way and I can't hide from it
What happens then if
When he knows me
He's only disappointed
What if I give myself away to only get it given back
I couldn't live with that
So I'm just fine inside my shell-shaped mind
This way I get the best view
So when he sees me, I want him to

I'm not defensive
I'm simply being cautious
I can't risk reckless dating
Due to my miscalculating why
A certain suitor stands in line I've seen in movies
Most made for television
You cannot be too careful when it comes to sharing your life
I could end up a miserable wife

He could be criminal
Some sort of psychopath who escaped from an
Institution somewhere where they don't have girls
He could have masterminded some way to find me
He could be color blind
How untrustworthy is that? He could be less than kind
Or even worse he could be very nice have lovely eyes
And make me laugh
Come out of hiding
What do I with that?
Oh god

What if when he sees me
I like him and he knows it
What if he opens up a door and I can't close it
What happens then
If when he holds me
My heart is set in motion
I'm not prepared for that I'm scared of breaking open
But still I can't help from hoping
To find someone to talk to
Who likes the way I am
Someone who when he sees me, wants to again

The 3 days passed like 3 seconds. It was to fast.

Now was the thing I dreaded most.

"Jared... I got to... go now."

Jared teared up.

"I miss you already~"

"Same here."

He gave you a hug.

We looked at each other.

"Y/n come on." Your mother called.

"Coming."

You left Jared with a wave.

-2 days later-

You were moving back to your old house. When you got the news.

"Y/n? Do you know someone named Jared-"

"Yeah what's up?"
[Jared]
I may not live to see our glory

[Mom]
Y/n? There's a letter for you

[Y/n]
It's from Jared . I'll read it later

[Jared]
But I will gladly join the fight

[Mom]
No. It's from his father

[Y/n]
His father?

[Jared]
And when our children tell our story

[Y/n]
Will you read it?

[Jared]
They'll tell the story of tonight

[Mom]
"My son,Jared was beaten to death by 3 boys at your old school. There was no way of survival. He told me to tell y/n that he will always watch over you.

[Jared]
Tomorrow there'll be more of us...

[Mom]
Y/n. Are you alright?

[Y/n]
I have so much work to do

You looked at your unpacked room

Michael and Jeremy were Both there to help you. They comforted you the best they could.

Michael was a little jealous of Jared before this and made fun of him before he passed. And now he regrets everything.

[Jeremy]
There are moments that the words don't reach
There is suffering too terrible to name
You hold your friend as tight as you can
And push away the unimaginable
The moments when you're in so deep
It feels easier to just swim down

[Jeremy/ENSEMBLE]
The L/n's move uptown
And learn to live with the unimaginable

[Michael]
I spend hours in the garden
I walk alone to the store
And it's quiet uptown
I never liked the quiet before
I take my friend to church on Sunday
A sign of the cross at the door
And I pray
That never used to happen before

[Jeremy AND WOMEN]
If you see him in the street, walking by
Himself, talking to himself, have pity

[Y/n]
Jared, you would like it uptown
It's quiet uptown

[Jeremy AND WOMEN]
He is working through the unimaginable

[Jeremy and y/n ]
His hair has gone grey. He passes every day
They say he walks the length of the city

[Michael]
You knock me out, I fall apart

[Jeremy]
Can you imagine?

[Michael]
Look at where we are
Look at where we started
I know I don't deserve you, Y/n
But hear me out. That would be enough

If I could spare his life
If I could trade his life for mine
He'd be standing here right now
And you would smile, and that would be enough
I don't pretend to know
The challenges we're facing
I know there's no replacing what we've lost
And you need time
But I'm not afraid
I know who I befriended
Just let me stay here by your side
That would be enough

[Jeremy)]
If you see him in the street, walking by her
Side, talking by her side, have pity

[Michael]
Y/n , do you like it uptown? It's quiet uptown

[Jeremy]
He is trying to do the unimaginable
See them walking in the park, long after dark
Taking in the sights of the city

[Michael]
Look around, look around, Y/n

[Jeremy]
They are trying to do the unimaginable

There are moments that the words don't reach
There is a grace too powerful to name
We push away what we can never understand
We push away the unimaginable
They are standing in the garden
Michael by Y/n's side
She takes his hand

[y/n]
It's quiet uptown

[Jeremy]
Forgiveness. Can you imagine?
Forgiveness. Can you imagine?
If you see him in the street, walking by her
Side, talking by her side, have pity
They are going through the unimaginable

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