It has been a couple of days since the baby conversation came up with Jihyo and things have gotten a little weird since then. Jihyo has been distant. Which I can understand since I basically told her no to the baby idea but it's just a 'not right now but later on yes' but she thinks i don't wants kids period.

I'm at a cafe alone to write in the journal, I purchased a new one since I'm starting to take my song writing seriously. I've been here for about any hour and nothing has really come to me. I don't know how I'm feeling truly, I'm just tired and wanted to go home but Jihyo is there. I'm not avoiding her it's just I don't like that she's being distant, I'd rather just not be there.

I kept making little circles on the page hoping something would come to my mind but I was distracted, I missed her...

I looked outside the windows of the cafe seeing rain drops starting to fall, I smiled loving the rain. For a second my mind wasn't thinking about her anymore I was too focused on the rain. I closed the book putting it in my backpack and putting on my jacket leaving the cafe. The smell of rain was so strong and the sound of rain drops hitting the floor was soothing. I just wanted to go home and cuddle up with Jihyo like we always did on rainy days but I'm not sure we would do that. I don't know what's going on between us but I want to figure it all out.

I'm not in love with her, not yet, I know I have some love for her but not the type of love that everyone expects. That's takes time and I feel like she's moving on that a little quicker than me. I don't want her to be distant I want communication between us, the baby conversation did not end well and honestly I don't think we ended it.

I eventually got to the building running my fingers through my hair to get some of the wetness out of it. I greeted the receptionist at the desk and walked to the elevator but I ended up slipping because the floor was wet. I landed on my back hitting my head and I groaned at the feeling closing my eyes on impact.

"Oh my god! Are you okay?" Said the receptionist as she rushed over to me but carefully to not fall as well, "I told the janitor to put up sign and clean up the water. I'm so sorry" she leaned down to me helping me sit up. "It's okay, things like this happen don't worry about it I should have been careful knowing it's raining and the floor had to be wet" I held my head and groaned more feeling my back tense up.

"Let me call Jihyo and an ambulance, they will make sure you're okay" she stood up walking back to her desk and I shook my head. "No no it's okay really I'm fine I promise" I stood up slowly rubbing my head and pressing the button for the elevator.

"Are you sure? I insist on the ambulance they will be here quickly" she said from her desk and I shook my head again walking into the elevator rubbing my head still. I'll definitely feel that in the morning

The elevator doors closed and I just waited patiently tapping my food rubbing my head as the doors open walking out down the hallway to my door as I unlocked it, Jihyo pulls me quickly setting her hands on my cheeks. I tried to pull away as I was confused and shocked not expecting her. "Are you okay?! Let me look at you" I tried to pull away but she grabbed my hand pulling me to the living room sitting me down as she straddles me.

"The receptionist called me and told me what happened. I'll make sure they get someone to put signs up. I swear it baby I'll make sure you'll be okay" she moved some hair from my face kissing my forehead getting off my lap and goes to the kitchen getting an ice pack coming back getting on my lap once again setting it over the small bump on the back of my head.

"I'm okay Jihyo I promise" she shook her head and kept the pack in place kissing my forehead again. "It could have been worse than just a bump on your head, could have cut open your head" I smiled seeing how much she started to panic, I could see that she cared a lot "stop smiling you idiot you scared me" she hit my head and I groaned at the pain. She giggled covering her mouth. "I'm sorry I forgot" I shook my head and rested my head on her should closing my eyes, wrapping my arms around her. "I missed you..." I said softly she hummed softly playing with my hair. "I did too, a lot too. Where did you go?"

"A cafe, I just wanted to write in my journal maybe right a song but I couldn't think of anything my mind was thinking about other things" I rubbed her back gently as she took off the ice pack setting it aside rubbing the bump gently. "Why didn't you just write here? I could have helped you if you needed it" she pulled away and got off my lap standing in front of me making a grabby hand to me. I told her hand and she lead us to the bedroom laying down, I joined her and her body instantly cling to me. "What? You don't think I forgot what we do on rainy days" her hand moved to my chest rubbing it softly.

"I just thought you wanted to be alone, you've been a little distant so that's why I went to the cafe. I don't like anyone being distant I'd rather just be alone then" I shrugged and looked out the window watching the rain fall. "I didn't mean to be distant it's just the thought of being pregnant made me happy and then the conversation came and it made me a little upset I'll admit because I thought it would make us both happy and bring us closer together" she said still rubbing my chest as she turned over on her side to look out the window as well. I moved onto my side pulling her close to me watching the rain with her.

"I never said that I didn't want a baby, it's just right now isn't the best time. You have a career that is very demanding mentally and physically and being pregnant would not mix well, I'm just looking out for your health because I'm being completely honest with you. If you got pregnant I would be so worried all day just wanting to make sure you're okay and then you dance all the time and you can get hurt and I really don't want that. I'd be a reck babe" kissing the back of her head I felt her smile. "You'd really be an overprotective girlfriend that worries too much? I kinda like the sound of that. Gives me an excuse to have my eye on you" she said intertwining our fingers.

"And the girls, don't get me started on them, if they found out... god I wouldn't hear the end of it from Jeongyeon, she's just as overprotective as me. She would probably kill me finding out that I got you pregnant but then would easy up on me. Nayeon would put me in my place to make sure you're always taken care of which you would be" I laughed "and Momo would just tease me, saying things like; 'It should have been me you knocked up' you know all of them would just be on my ass" I heard her giggle nodding at my words and turned around again but straddling me.

"Okay so no babies right now, but no one said we couldn't practice" she gave me a smirk. "I really want to do that, trust me, I can't even believe I'm saying this but... not right now" her smirk disappeared, I could see she was getting a little sad and my hands went to her hips pushing my hips up a little. So she knows that I definitely want her."I just remembered we have dinner plans with the girls and us practicing will get in the way, I want to I really do but we have other plans" she smiles and nodded leaning down kissing me. I missed her lips even if she's been distant only for a short while I missed it.

"Let's get ready yea? And it looks like the rain is not stopping anytime soon so I'm going to wear comfortable clothes nothing fancy" I smiled and she nodded getting off of me and walks to the closet picking out an outfit. We both picked out the same outfit just jeans and an oversized hoodie. We both walked out hand in hand leaving the building and making our way to the restaurant that the girls picked

We noticed that we were the first ones there which was perfect fine with me, the hostess lead us to a private room that was big enough for all of us. I sat down next to Jihyo as she pulled my hand into her lap rubbing my knuckles with her thumb. "Y/n?" She asked and turned to her humming softly. "Do you think we are getting serious? Like our relationship I mean, do you think we are in a good place to say things are serious? I don't want this to be just some immature relationship" I nodded at her and smiled. "I think it is serious, I really like you and I want something that is going to last for a long time. I do love you but not the love that I'm looking for, not yet but it's growing everyday slowly" I said as she smiles leaning over kissing my cheek.

"We literally can't go anywhere with you two without seeing all of this" Mina said laughing as all the girls entered the room greeted us. "Well I'm sorry to tell you but you guys will be seeing a lot of it and for awhile too" Jihyo said glancing over at me squeezing my hand gently. "Oh so this is serious serious. I still thought I would have had a chance" Momo said smiling at me. "One day I'll find what you two have and I'll cherish it" Tzuyu said and my heart melted. She's so cute and she will definitely find it. "Well Jihyo is stuck with me because I'm not going anywhere so I guess that means you girls are stuck with me too" I smiled as we all started our small talk. Dinner ended and we all were very full and satisfied with the meal.

"So a little birdie told me that you two did something in the studio when we left the other day" Chaeyoung said smirking. "Oh yea we did we figured something's out for the album" I said smiling at them. "Oh no no no that's not what I heard and trust me they heard something completely different too" she said shaking her head. "I never thought that Jihyo would become like this, she's always the innocent one, I could have thought maybe Momo but Jihyo? You think you know someone" Sana said laughed as Jihyo looked down blushing.

"Hey but it's okay Jihyo you don't have to be embarrassed. Just didn't think that Y/n was that good. Now I'm very envious" Momo said pouting. "Well you aren't ever going to found out how good she is" Jihyo said as my hand moved to her thigh, she was getting a little protective which I didn't mind but I also knew the girls were just teasing her. "Anyways, Nayeon? Jeongyeon? How are you two doing?" I asked trying to change the conversation.

"What? We are perfectly fine Y/n why would you ask? I wanted to know more about what happened in the studio" Nayeon said, "is it clean? Can we all go in now? I don't think I can work in there anymore my head would be thinking of what happened in there" she said making a face. "And why would that be a bad thing of what you think? If it makes you feel some type of way then I think it's okay" Jeongyeon said and I laughed, she was good. They also just needed to date already the chemistry is there.

We all made it back to the building after grabbing some ice cream on the way home. I didn't want anything as my sweet tooth was not feeling anything sweet for the night we all walked in and to the elevator as Jihyo ate her ice cream she offered me some but I just shook my head. "It's good though and I feel bad if I'm the only one eating" she said as I wrapped my arms around her as she leaned back into my body. She offered again and I took a small taste of it, she was right it was good but I just did it to make her happy. She leaned up to my ear whispering, "will you get me ice cream and all the crazy things I crave when I get pregnant?" I smiled at her comment. She really wanted this. "I'll get you anything and everything your heart desires babe" she smiled and nodded as the doors opened saying goodnight to the girls. "Anything my heart desires?" I nodded at her questions.

We finally made it to our floor, Nayeon and Jeongyeon got out first and we parted ways with them saying goodnight as we walked to my place. "Then you can give me something that my heart really wants" Jihyo said as she ate her ice cream as I opened the door sliding off my shoes and hoodie. "And what would that be Moonlight?" I smiled helping her take off her shoes and held her ice cream as she took off her hoodie. "A baby" she said smiling at me taking the ice cream and waking to the couch