Your p.o.v
   I sit at the edge of my bed hold my phone in one hand and look at my watch on my other hand.
    inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale
   I breathed to the rhythm of the shape on the watch. I finished my breathing exercise and continued to wait for my boyfriend. We were in the mortal world because we still had school to finish. Some how I was able to make it into the International Baccalaureate Program, which really took most of my time away. However, today I was free and so I decided to hang out with Nico.
      I finally decided to get up and walk around my room. I catch an image of myself in the mirror. Starting from the bottom, i check my outfit, finally my eyes reach my face. My hair looks terrible and greasy due to the fact that I haven't showered in a couple days, my face looking worse. But then, I looked closer and saw myself change into a more appealing look. I look away from the mirror and sit back down on my bed.
       ding!
      I look at my phone. My face remains neutral but inside, I bright up. It was a message from Nico.
   Nico <3 : I'm outside. Sorry for being late!
       I replied quickly and made my way out my room and to the front door. Outside the door stood my lovely boyfriend, wearing all black as usual. I greet him with a big tight hug.
      "Hey! You ready to go?" he says as he hugs back.
      "Yeah, I'm ready!" i respond. We break apart and he reaches his hand for mine. I've missed him a lot. Due to all the school work, I haven't been able to see Nico as much as I'd like to. Not even around campus.
       "How were your finals?" he asked, as we walked towards the near by McDonald's.
        "Stressful" i sighed. "I barely passed. I got like a C on all of them. Except math! i got an 85% and i'm really proud of myself!"
        "That's good, i'm proud of you too, (Y/n)" he smiled. I felt butterflies in my tummy and my heart raced with happiness. Hearing that from Nico was always nice.
          Finally we made it to the McDonald's. Nico held the door for me, saying, "After you ma'am" in some sort of southern accent
          "Why thank you, darling" i responded with an attempt of a southern accent. We laughed and made our way inside. I felt happy, like everything was actually going okay... No more stressful nights, staying up finishing homework or studying for physics. I forgot about my grades and forgot about comparing them with others. I forgot about my depression and anxiety. Being with Nico brought out the best of me. I always was able to smile and breathe. I look at his face, and see the 'rare' smile that usually is around me. It was cold outside, so his nose was a little red. There were dark circles under his eyes, which i had some under mine to match, and parts of his hair would cover his black eyes that always seemed to sparkle when he was around me.
          Suddenly I gasp for air and i'm greeted by darkness. I reach up to feel tears on my cheek. I get out of my bed and turn on the light. Quickly I go to the mirror and see the same image from the beginning of the what appeared to be a dream.
           There stood the same person, however much much worse looking. Not only was my hair terrible and greasy, but it was a mess. My eyes were puffy and there were dark circles under my eyes. Tear stains all over my cheek. I was still in my pajamas, looking tired like always. I tear up again, realizing today is just another day.
           Another day since Nico was dead.
(A/N) wtf did i write.idk.
updates:
uuuuh anyway,, sorry for not updating, i've just been so busy and unmotivated to write. forgive me.
i have deleted the part called hey... bc oof.

have an amazing day/night <3

(A/N) I look back at my old stories and i cringe, and i look at the comments and i ask myself, why did i write that? id like to think i've improved but,,, meh