Is it bad that I was called fat, and my feelings weren't hurt because my self esteem is all ready that low?

Is it bad that I tell myself that no one loves me yet people still do?

Is it bad that I'm too nice to be mean most of the time?

Is it bad that I don't care about life anymore to the point that I shut everyone out?

Is it bad that I have better relationships with 2D characters or people from the stories I read and write than the real life folk?

Is it bad that the most joy in my life I get from reading, writing, and watching anime?

Is it bad that I don't feel worthy for God to help me?

Is it bad that I never cry or ask for help when I really need it?

Is it bad that I'm not like a normal girl?

Is it bad that I never really smile?

Is it bad that I've never been in love or had a relationship?

Is it bad that I really dislike everything?

Is it bad that I just want to go and cry for no reason other than to get rid of the pent up emotions?

Is it bad that I think I'm ugly, and fat, and unattractive?

Is it bad that the only relationship level I can reach is friends?

Is it bad that I'm me?

Is it bad the I'm jealous of everyone?

Is it bad that I wish I could be them?

Is it bad when I think the reason nothing ever happens is because of me?

Is it bad that I think everything bad that has happened is my fault?

Is it bad that I blame myself for not being enough?

Is it bad that I don't trust anyone except my baby Ginger?

Is it bad that I have no one special in my life?

Is it bad that forgetting everything and everyone that I see everyday is a habit?

Is it bad that I'm weird?

Is it bad that I'm different?

Is it bad that I'm me?...

Why is it bad? Why can't it be good? Why must the world teach false hope, and be full of lies? Why can't I ever just be nice and have nobody get the wrong idea? Why?.... Tell me why? Convince me the reason why everything about me is bad...

Why.... Why can't I be accepted as who I am? Why can't the things I do have an effect on people I really care for in a good way? Why can't I just live a normal life... Why? Just why? Is it really that bad?

Is it bad that I don't succumb to every guys sexual desire?

Is it bad that I don't give them what they want?

Is it bad that all the guys don't like me because I'm the good girl who doesn't give him everything they asked for?

Nooooo!!!! To bad get over it! Not every girl is like how the world wants us to be! Trying to force us to be like that doesn't work either... I don't care what you say but you can get mad because I'm being one of the only trust worthy girl out there! Loyal as can be, but if we're not dirty y'all don't care? Is that bad to be a clean girl?

Is it bad the our world's point of view is twisted enough that little girl go out and doing things only married people should do?

Is it bad that a conversation I heard while shopping was about how only to attract guys girls have to show off their boobs and butts?

Is it bad I think the world is sick because of all this crap?

A/N: Okay yes the past two have been very depressing that's because when I wrote These I was very depressed... So now I just decided to publish them so I can erase them off of my computer.... I don't care what people think but really this is what goes through my mind every day though I'm not the type of person who would ever commit suicide so I have no worry towards that. It's just I don't like to worry people are depend on them cuz if I tell them this stuff they automatically think I'm going to kill myself but nobody ever ever since so why talk just write.

PS: THIS IS ME!!!! IT'S SAD RIGHT? HOW VIEW MYSELF....