it's been so long

since i've written again

afraid to hold my pen

afraid to express

why is it so hard?

it used to be so easy

words

there's no words

blank

everything is black

i want to feel again

trapped

get me out of here

hopeless

someone save me

voiceless

someone listen to me

I surrender

just make it stop

make my mind stop

its cruel

destroy me

kill me

i can't live anymore

i don't want to live anymore

no safe place

nothing to call home

tired

i'm tired

not okay

i was never okay

please stay

please understand

please just stay

that's all i need

stay