🍂Tyler🍂

I laid down on my bed with sweat over my forehead and chest. Brendon pulled out and climbed off the bed quickly pulling up his boxers. "You should know by now to not say anything. Especially to Dallon." I nodded my head and shooed him away letting him know I knew.

"Good." With that he threw on his shirt and pants and walked out my room. I sighed and stood up off my bed. I walked to my bathroom and grabbed a pair of clean sweats. I got into the bathroom and threw the sweats onto the counter. I turned on the shower and placed my hand under the water. After a few moments the water was warm enough not to sting me.

I climbed in and closed the curtain. Why do I do this to myself? I thought. I leaned my forehead against the wall and closed my eyes thinking about all the times guys have only used me for sex and left. How I would just go along with it. I only do it because at that point it doesn't make me feel alone. Tears start to fill my eyes at the thought of being alone for the rest of my life.

This is my last year of high school. Throughout all of high school I have been the one guy almost every gay guy goes to just to fuck and leave. I've liked multiple guys before, but due to guys constantly fucking me they have never wanted a relationship with me. It always broke my heart after they rejected me. Then I would just turn around and have some guy from my school fucking me the next minuet to get rid of the feeling.

Alcohol could do the same thing, but it doesn't work with me. No matter what alcohol I drink it makes me pass out. Even though I know I'll most likely be alone forever somehow I still manage to like some guy. His names Josh. He has gorgeous dark brown hair with the top part of his hair light blue. I wiped the tears away from my eyes and stood up straight. I grabbed the shampoo and started cleaning my hair.

After minuets of crying in the shower and cleaning up. I turned off the shower and stepped out. I grabbed and towel and dried myself off trying my hardest to not look at my reflection in the mirror. I dried myself off and grabbed my sweats putting them on.

I walked out of my room and laid on my bed sighing. The room was soon filled with silence and my breathing. I started to drift off to sleep when my phone vibrated. The noise startled me causing me to jump. I groaned and turned on my side grabbing my phone.

I turned it on causing the light to blind me. Once I got use to the light I saw I had a text, but I couldn't point out who it was from. I rubbed my eyes and saw it was an unknown number.