🍂Tyler🍂

I woke up and saw Josh laying in front of me smiling and playing with my hair. "Morning beautiful." He said wrapping his arms around me securely and kissed my forehead. "Why did you call me beautiful?" I looked at him confused. "Because you are." I looked into his eyes confused. "I'm too tired to argue with you."

He laughed as I set my head on his chest. "Good because no matter what I would have won." I laughed and placed my hand on his lower stomach. I closed my eyes as there was a moment of silence. "Josh?" I asked with tiredness lacing my voice. He hummed in response.

"What are we?" I asked keeping my head down and eyes closed. "I was hoping your my boyfriend without me having to ask." I sighed since there was a thought in the back of my mind nagging me. He's lying.

"Ty. What's wrong?" I shook my head and turned away slowly crawling to the opposite side of the bed. I didn't want him to learn about the thoughts in my head. "Tyler what's wrong?" He asked more stern. "D-Don't worry about it." I felt the lump in my throat as I held in my tears. I heard Josh sigh and climb out of the bed.

I began to cry since I thought he left. I curled into a ball and cried covering my eyes. "Baby come on." Josh said and picked me up off the bed. You look so stupid and pathetic for crying. The thoughts got louder. My grip on Josh's shirt loosened. "Ca-Can you p-put me down." I asked still crying.

"No. Not unless I know your okay." He laid his head in the crook of my neck and kissing my neck softly. I gave up and laid on his shoulder. "I-I'm sorry." I said as I hiccuped. "Why are you sorry?" He walked out of the bedroom carrying me. "What's wrong with Tyler? Is he having more thoughts?"

I let go of Josh's shirt and covered my face embarrassed. "What thoughts?" Josh asked curious. "Nothing. Just set him on the couch. I'll get him some tea and a sucker." Patrick walked into the kitchen as Josh sat on the couch. "I-I need to go to th-the bathroom." I said between sniffles. "Okay." He grabbed my chin and brought me into a kiss.

I stood up and walked to the bathroom as tears fell down my cheek.
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I walked out of the bathroom looking down adjusting my shirt over my stomach. "Hey ty. Here's your tea and sucker." I nodded my head and took both. "Thank you." I said quietly. I walked over to the couch and slowly sat down on the opposite side of Josh.

"Are you fine?" I nodded my head to Patrick's question. "Okay well I need to go home, but if something happens just call me." I nodded my head keeping my gaze on my hands in my lap. "Josh can I talk to you outside?" Josh nodded his head and walked outside with Patrick.

I lifted my shirt slowly and saw the multiple cuts I had made on my stomach and lower chest. The door opened causing me to quickly push my shirt down and take a sip of the tea. Josh walked in giving me somewhat of a smile. "Why did he want to talk to you outside?" I asked a little worried.

"He just wanted to tell me some stuff." He locked the front door and walked over sitting next to me. "How's the tea?" He placed his hand on my back rubbing circles calming me down a bit. "It's good." He grabbed my empty hand and kissed my arm. "You know I won't let anyone harm you right?"

I nodded my head and he kissed the back of my hand. I took another sip of tea trying to calm down my nerves as Josh placed his hand under my shirt. Josh realized how tense I was and pulled me closer. "Can I see your wrist?" He asked holding out his hand. He knows. I sighed and held the cup with my other hand.

I lifted my arm and he slowly pulled down my sleeve seeing old cuts. "I was hoping Patrick wasn't right." I looked down disappointed as I pulled away my wrist. I got up from the couch and walked to the kitchen cleaning out my cup. I walked back to the couch opening the sucker. "Can you lift up your shirt for me so I can see if you have cuts there?"

I shook my head and turned on the tv. "I'm not going to hurt you. I just want to make sure." I shook my head again avoiding eye contact.