ONE YEAR BACK                                          
       Huh....

    I open my eyes to the bright sunlight coming from the window,flooding the room.When did the hell do I open my curtains?

    Yeah, not again.I know,my Mom. Why she likes sunlight so much ?? 

    But then I question my side.Why do I hate it so much...?

    Maybe because......it's too hot out there and opening the curtains let's all the hot air inside freely and the sunlight illuminating everything, everything I don't want to lay my eyes on....my room,and myself in the mirror that stands unfairly in the front of my bed, showing all of me.

      I smile unintentionally at nothing.

     But if I'm trying to point out a reason for the hatred I have for sun then surely I'm missing out a lot more.Why I hate boys, dates and all that shitty crap.If I make a start at the sunrise, trying to find out a reason for everything I hate, It'll take a couple of years to get myself the answer of all those pointless questions.

    I've been asked about my strange attitude many times but now I've learned how to ignore and be ignored.Or maybe more.

    OWhatever.Why do I hate everything????  ..... But again... why the hell I'm thinking about this shit at 7:00 in the morning, when I've got a lot of stuff to do.I should be get going,like.... NOW!

   With the thought I scoot off my bed and go to the closet taking out a T-shirt and a pair of jeans.I look at myself in the ugly mirror.I feel pity for the mirror because it looks crap  because of me.It deserves so much better.

I hate that I am what I am.
I hate that I look so ridiculous.
I hate that I live in this body.This lifeless piece of flesh.
     When I was backing off I noticed something new.Whoahhhh!!!!!! Wait a minute!  Ahhhhh.....I let out a short sigh.A pimple.My exemplary beauty and elegance was lacking this all the damn time.EXCELLENT!