This is really hard for me to do, but it's the safest place for me to do this, so here we go.

Some of you may remember back in February/March when I took a bit of a break. Basically, many things were happening at the time. Some with friends and family and others were personal battles.

... Here we go...

One of these battles is my sexuality. I'm still battling it. It's hard for me due to the fact that I've grown up in a homophobic household. I can read, write, and see all these things, but having it personally affect me... Terrifies the shit out of me.

Now, as I said I'm still struggling with it, but I've formed some conclusions... I'm about 85% sure I'm Pansexual. There are some doubts, but in my heart I'm sure.

This absolutely terrifies me. This is the only safe place I can admit this. I have one or two friends that would support me, but the rest either don't agree or haven't given an opinion. I would be kicked out if I told my parents... It scares me.

That's the reason I don't give out my real name and why I'm contemplating taking my face reveal down. If my parents find it... I'm scared for how they'll react. They openly put down and bash anyone in LGBT community and it hurts.

Moving on, I know I will probably struggle with this for awhile... I mean I've been struggling with this since I was 15, but now I feel safe enough to admit it.

I don't know if I'm making any sense. I'm really tired and stressed as I write this.

Here's some pictures, because I can.

Thank you guys for all you do.

Love ya all <3