How can you forgive her when she broke you! Yes I lied to you to protect you, but her? She lied, got an abortion and she cheated on you yet you still love her to all ends of the earth and forgave her just like that.

When I mess up you completely act like a different person and i absolutely hate it. Yes I lied but I did it to protect you because I thought it was the right thing to do until I realized I was wrong. Yes you sit here and talk to me and I tell you everyday that I will fight for you and our relationship but it's so hard to do that when you go and drink till you're black out drunk, or smoke every hour of everyday when you absolutely know you shouldn't because you have weak kidneys and weak lungs. You've completely given up and I'm so tired of crying because I'm so god damned worried about you, every single fucking day I worry about you.