What am I feeling? Am I Depressed? If not, what's this empty feeling building in my heart? Why must it overcome every other emotion in myself? Is this a dream or a nightmare? Is this real or not? I struggle to grasp

Why do I live? Why am I going through this? Am I cursed from my second chances? Am I being punished from my recklessness? Am I being forgotten for losing my significance? Or am I just fading from existence because I'm only a ghost in the background.

What is this feeling in my heart? Am I sad or happy? Content or depressed? Why can I not understand what I feel? Am I satisfied with my life right now? Do I regret something? Am I regretting this all? WHY CAN'T I UNDERSTAND MY HEART? MY HEART IS CRYING AND I COULD ONLY FOLLOW!

I... don't know what I am going through. I have my family, friends, and all, but I can't shake this feeling of despair building I'm my heart. It's overwhelming me. :'( I don't know what to do. I don't know who to turn to. My pleas for help are disguised behind a mask of fake smiles and forced laughs.

My inability to talk with others, with those close to me, cuts me off. I'm trying to get myself to talk, but it's shrouded by doubt and paranoia. The beating heart inside only spews poison throughout myself. I feel sick. I feel tired. I'm crying, without making a sound. I'm the lonely soul in the dark depths of my existence. Crying for help, but with no one around to respond.