(A/N): I just randomly created this at the middle of night *~* I still don't know how I created a pretty dark fic at night...

Disclaimer: May be triggering with the mention of panic attacks!

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Choromatsu's POV

Dark. It was dark.

Drip. Drip. Drip.

The worn-out ceiling of our retro-like house occasionally let in a few troublesome water drops, each pattering against the wooden floor in a steady yet dead-like beat, enough to drive someone crazy. Well, me crazy, to say the least.

My chest painfully moved up and down as I counted each and every single water drop under my breath, not missing a single one at all.

Oh no...

To distract myself, my eyes wavered towards the others in the same futon as me while I was clutching the top of the covers with my hands. The soft mesh between my hands somewhat calmed me down, but not for long.

My chest heaved up and down more as I nervously counted each of the heads, panicking more when one head was missing. The spot in between Karamatsu and Osomatsu was disturbingly empty, dead almost.

Maybe...maybe Todomatsu had to go to the restroom! Yeah, that's probably it...

I closed my eyes shut, trying to calm down as I mentally counted from one to ten, stopping at eight when a loud snore rang out.

Jyushimatsu turns a bit in his sleep, drooling a bit as he starts snoring loudly with his mouth open, scrambling my thoughts as I tried to compose myself again. His snores weren't exactly the most calming noises in the world...

D-Don't worry...the pain will go away...

I tried to reassure myself as the corners of my vision started to get fuzzy as I started to carefully climb out the futon, trying not to catch any unwanted attention.

Water can help! But wait, what happens if one of them wakes up? What if a robber attacks?! What if Todomatsu starts panicking?

I immediately collapsed as I held my chest, desperately trying to catch my breath back. My legs naturally were hugged close to my chest as I huddled in a small shaking ball, rocking back and forth as I panted more.

Problems swam through my mind as my heart pounded so loudly that I could hear the increased tempo of my heartbeat blaring through my ears.

L-Life is great! It's just great!

What a mess I am, panicking while my brothers are sleeping fine, with no problems or worries.

Yes! They can't know! They'll just worry over a pathetic worry-hog!

Osomatsu suddenly opens his eyes and sigh as he looks at the futon, seeming like he is...counting something?

His eyes suddenly widened as he stares right at...me...

Seeing me huddled up in the corner, sweating and panting heavily must've triggered something in Osomatsu as he immediately gets out the futon and steps his way to where I was. Weird.

My lungs burned painfully as more salty tears came out of me, almost drying me off all the tears I have available as Osomatsu gently held me in his arms.

Darkness. It's winning...

I limped in his arms as the pain and darkness finally defeated me, my heart no longer able to handle it. His warmth still seeped through my pajamas as I passed out there in his arms.

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It feels like a heart attack just coming straight at you, trying to make you surrender and beg on your knees for the pain to stop.

...

I hated it...

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I slowly opened my eyes, still in Osomatsu's arms as I looked around my surroundings.

Only gone lights out for a couple of minutes I guess...

Osomatsu genuinely looks at me with worry as he stares into my eyes, trying to read me.

I moved my head away from his sight, guilty as I sighed.

"I'm okay." A blank statement. That should've stopped any more questions to come streaming to me. Instead, that did the opposite effect that I was not going for.

"'Okay?!' Wha- You are obviously not okay!" Osomatsu yelled out, irritated and annoyed.

This idiot actually looks like he cares...

"What's going on Choromatsu!? You've been cold towards me, avoiding me, even trying to get out of our usual hangouts! Did I do something wrong?" At the last sentence, he pleads for me to talk to him, answer him, hold onto him, do something.

I sighed. The two of us have been best friends since we were born. The two of us has always paired up when we, sextuplets, split up to do who-knows-what, making us 'battle-buddies.' Jyushimatsu and Ichimatsu would be next, and poor Karamatsu was left with Todomatsu all the time.

We were the closest of the closest there was, even if I get annoyed by Osomatsu all the time when he doesn't take anything seriously. But we really equal each other out, me getting his lazy butt out of bed and him trying to loosen me up time to time again.

I guess without each other, we would collapse and fail in society, to be completely honest.

"Sorry...I just panicked..." Was all I said before holding onto him more, hating how my 'emotional dam' is about to break.

Osomatsu sighs as he holds me close in his arms, his rare and tender brotherly nature coming out as he rakes his fingers through my hair like a comb. Soft and gentle.

"Remember that you can tell me anything...I'm your big brother and best friend..."

At those words, I felt more guilty than ever, wanting to tell him now, releasing the burden on my shoulders, but the darkness took over me into a deep slumber.

"I love y-" His words get drowned out.

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Hey. My name is Matsuno Choromatsu. I'm the third eldest son of the sextuplets. I have OCD and anxiety. I'm in love with the eldest brother, Matsuno Osomatsu.

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(A/N): This is a 300 followers special! Did I hit you right in the kokoro? If I did, then I did a good job! If not then...I'm dead. This might be awkward with the first person POV, but whateves!
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