I should have reilized from the start that I was not meant to love again.

I lost my Andrea.. My first true love. I should have known..

Then I lost Dean... Without an explanation...

Then Beth..

And now Cas..

Im not suposed to love, and I think ots clear now. Just a walking, talking bag of nothing-ness... there is a huge hold on my heart, and I can't fill it. Im sorry.