Hey

If you been following my fucking shit ass life as it's been said on my messages you are already ahead of the game. If you haven't been I'm going to fill you in.

So please buckle up and enjoy the shitty ass ride of my personal life in the past yeat.

What you need to know is I met this depressed girl this year. I met her cause her friend liked me. We will call my friend Syd as her name. Well like I said before Syd was depressed. We bonded and ended up becoming really good friends. Well for awhile I was constantly talking her out of suicide. Some of you will remember those messages. Around December she met this girl. Haley and well they hit it off and started it dating. Well things were looking up for Syd and I could finally look at my problems now.

Well remember that girl who liked me. She was obsessed with me. And well I dated her and I regretted it. Afterwards for 6 months from January to June she lied and spread rumors about me. It really put me down and i was starting to get severe depression and it was really building onto my already severe anxiety.

Durning the month of February I asked my friend out. I mean I was given advice to and I took it. Why? I don't know. It's been like 7 months since we last talked.

Fast forward to the first week of July. I met Syd's girlfriend and we bonded. I learn shit about her. Like how she cut and stuff. How she hated herself etc. How her family was broke. Well my tall Czech friend and I talked about all her problems and wanted to help. There we came up with genius plan to use make up to cover her scars so she wouldn't die in the brutal New England summers.

All of this going on in the middle of two huge friend group fight which I was some how dragged into as the middleman for both of them.

Alone with massive amounts of hate from kids at school for me being bisexual and a shit ton towards my fellow LGBTQ+ friends. Threatening us and all that fun shit.

I'm stilling dealing with a bunch of shit. Which a major reason why leaving. I gotta help my friends and my self.

Also school is starting back up again along with sports and shit. Just a minor reason for now.

So in conclusion it's not this community. I just have a shit ton of personal matters going on. I love this community so much. You guys are awesome and supportive. Thank you for understanding everything this past year and I hope you guys will still support my choice. I will hopefully not be gone for ever. Hopefully only a few days to a few weeks. On the hopefully rare chance I do need to leave forever or for an extremely long time, I will figure something out whether i give my account away or just delete it or let a friend run it. Who knows. I will get to that when the time comes if it does. Hopefully it does not get to that point. I just want to say thank you to everyone who has been so supportive and loving and helped me out so far. Thank you. I know I went in depth on some topics and not in depth on others. As you probably can understand it's cause what i want to share and what i don't. Just thank you tho for understanding.