The following isn't exactly a poem. More like a spill of words that may or may not sound majestic. (I dunno—we'll see.)

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I don't know

What I was thinking

That day

Giving you a way to get in touch

Maybe you didn't deserve that much

I didn't have any idea in mind

What was I after?

I can't say

Maybe it was part of the plan

It needed to happen

To change a few aspects

Of who I am

Maybe someone needed to show you

What commitment

Really is

And maybe I needed to be taught

That rules are made

To be kept

I don't know why

You came into my life

I don't know why

I couldn't see

How did I not predict

The pain you would cause me?

Here's to me believing every word

Every lie

I can tell you honestly

That I meant every word

I never said anything

Carelessly

I trusted you too much

I thought you honestly

Treasured my words

And my company

And maybe you did

But you didn't earn it

I was so scared the whole time

And you proved I had a reason

To be

I knew there was a risk involved

But I trusted you

When I shouldn't have

But I did

And I can't change it

So here I am

Saying goodbye to any proof

That you were ever here

You won't win me over

With your excuses

I deserve something better than

Half the truth

Here I am

Deleting messages

Pictures

But the memories won't be so easy

But I think I'll keep them

As a reminder

Of rules I need to keep.