Is it crazy that I still miss you
after all the tragedy we've gone through

I always thought you're the one for me
but why I didn't see it coming?

when I knew the truth
that you were betraying me
I told myself I was better off with out you
but now I feel so lost and clueless...

I thought I can get over it
as the time goes on
but the pain is only worsening
each day as the reality sinks in...

and I can't help but wonder
what are you thinking now...
are you feeling sorry for what you've done?
or are you laughing for the fool I've become?
or are you happy  that it was finally over?

when I learned your true colour that night,
I promised myself to move on,
not cry over the past...

but why is it this difficult?
I'm crying, thinking of all the good things
can't help, but wonder, were they all really true
or is it just your acting ability?!

you left me in a position
that I can no longer trust anyone
and I can never ever allow anyone near me

there'll be always this insecurity
deep inside, slowly destroying me
making me feel like a stone with empty emotions...

and it hurts realizing the fact
that part of me died on that night,
and I become more vulnerable than anyone can be...

and no matter how hard I try
I can never be the same again...