There are few things in life which you know already,

but you never dare to admit

And at one point those things come alive 

and shutter you like anything

Make you feel vulnerable

Make you doubt your own strengths

Make you wonder about the days which you lived all these days

That is what happened to me right now

I'm absolutely feeling gutted, you know, to be kicked out

All the strength I had all these days is vanished in a split second

All the hopes I had never come alive

This realization is eating my brain

My chain of thoughts making me doubt myself

And this reality is making me feel miserable.