i joke about stuff to make people happy
i joke about being stupid to make people laugh
i joke about life to make people feel better
i joke about myself to hide whats on the inside
i joke about sadness to hint my emotions
i joke about suicide as a coping mechanism
i joke about death to give signs
i joke about dying to see if someone actually cares
i joke about not existing to see if someone would react
i joke about many things
nobody laughed.