A saving grace I need
To put this mind at ease
An assurance of hope I want
To tether this faith and make it stout

Forgive me if I sound cynical
But this reason to go on I cannot fathom
A helping hand wouldn't be bad
Only if it's safe from the poison in my heart

Maybe this is the reality of my existence
To want something I can never have
And to have questions that will not be answered

I pray that when I see Your face
The words I hear won't be,
"Thank you, next."

P.S: channeled Ariana Grande in the end here. I really like her; her strength amazes me.