I guess I'll just post my feelings. Billie eilish said to not to post your feelings buttttt eh.

so I'm sitting here and I'm realizing that maybe it's not that people don't talk to me because they don't want to. but what if it's me. I think I've distanced myself from everyone and they just thought, "well she doesn't want to talk to us or be friends" so they just stopped.

maybe the problem is me. maybe it's me. maybe I stopped talking first and that's why my relationships with people are being stranger or nonexistent anymore. maybe it's me.. just a random thought