Mothers Day was absolutely greaaat.
Actually turns out Mothers Day is the day I'm a disgrace to my family, wish I had a scissors right now, could slit my arms open again... *heavy sigh*

I bet you're wondering what happened, well, get ready for a fUCKING RABBIT HOLE!

I thought today was gonna be all sunshine and rainbows but APPARENTLY FUCKING NOT!

Okay, calm the hell down, don't scream again...

I really only remember the end which scarred me heavily today, as I was crying like hell when it happened, and now that I'm remembering it I'm crying again.

So I was sitting in my room, trying to calm down from a heated argument when my dad came in for probably the 4th time, with my phone, and a hammer. He started screaming at me that he was gonna break my phone if I didn't go apologize to my mom right now, we sat for a bit arguing until I shouted asking where she was, because I didn't want my phone to be fucking smashed into the ground, and was crying heavily again. He told me she was in the living room and if he got to 3 and I still hadn't apologized my phone would be smashed, so I started leaving and he told me to "fucking run" (Yes, he actually said that) because he was at two, which I ran and basically tackled my mom to the couch crying and basically screaming sorry, where my dad followed me and started cussing me out right infront of my mom and my little sister. My mom told me and my sister to get our coats and shoes on, and that we were going for a walk. I was still crying and my dad was still cussing me out by the time we got our coats and shoes on, and when we left the house, I could hear my dad yell at me "FUCKING UNGRATEFUL BRAT!" Where my mom slammed the door in response, and we all left. I cried the entire walk and when we came back I just slipped to my room and cried.

I only got my phone back now, so welcome me back for a bit I guess...

Edit:
This is what I'm listening to tonight, it helps calm me