So um...as u can tell this chapter has to do with virginity.
And the fact of the matter is..i lost mine..
Yea..
Let me tell u something. It went better than expected at first until he put it in. Like it was the worse pain ever...and im still hurting. Everytime i sit down or go to pee it hurts like a mf. But it was great besides that...
At the end lol..people were concerned tho cause he didn't use protection..i know for a fact he doesnt have anything..and i dont think i cant get pregnant if he finished on my...butt...

And see the thing is. This event was not planned at all.. Hehe i joked afterwards that he raped me. Cause i had no intentions of doing it...i was physical ready yet. I was mentally tho...
But we did...

And also apparently...im really good at giving head..and while i was...he was so shocked and surprised. And told me how good i was at doing that...and i have never done anything like that...
I think its cause i watch too much porn...

Later after that he..returned the favor..
Then later came the trying to fit it in...

Not gonna describe those parts....
But i was so close to crying and screaming cause it hurt so much...
And i said before it still hurts...
And im still bleeding
(because apparently when u lose it. U bleed a lil bit)
And i did my research and this is gonna last a few days..

Now that i think about it...its as if it didnt happen..

But damn was it amazing...

When we were walking back from his house he told me "hey Tommorow u should come over again and get high with me.."

And the thing is..

Im a good kid

But im considering it..m