My ex had updated on her life...
It was saddening to see that things keep getting worse and worse for her...
I wish i could help her..
But i cant...
And even if i was able to help...
She would push me away and not want it...
She hates me...
Sometimes..i feel like she hates me more than her cruel parents...
Ever since she has left...
I have dreams about her...
I had one yesterday..
That we were in a school bus headin to our high school...
I remember..talking about her...how we use to date and all of those sweet small moments...
She heard them and turned around and shot me a dead glare...
I dont remember much...
But i do remember...
She had said something..
And a girl had laughed at her..
I remember getting so pissed i started to beat her up saying "U ARE NOT ALLOWED TO LAUGH AT LEXI"
Lexi started to freak out and told me stop and yelling at me to stay out if her life...
I remember stopping..looking at her for a second crying....
Then..
I broke the window of the bus...jumped out..somehow survived...then jumped infront of the bus and died...i remember..how she stared like she was satisfied...
Despite all this sadness...
There was something funny about it...
When the bus hit me i flew into some persons property..some old guy came out and shouted "GET OFF MY LAWN"....
It was weird..
I guess what im trying to say is..i miss her..and im still not over her...
But..not so much miss us dating...

What i miss...

Is us being friends....