Welp....my brother got in trouble again. Why dose this affect me? Because he nearly hurt his little brother AGAIN!!! Plus he almost hurt my grandma!!! Guess I'm scared to stay in this house with him!!! HE'S THE MAIN REASON WHY I HAVE DEPRESSION!!!!! HE KEEPS SAYING THINGS LIKE HOW GREAT HIS LIFE WOULD BE IF I WAS DEAD OR I SHOULD JUST GO DIE!!!! Just last year, we were g to Colorado for the week and other was bout to get in the shower. My mom was busy cooking while my dad was gone for a while. He treated me and his baby brother like SHIT!!! He said that he wishes I would just die!!! Not to mention, a couple of years ago, my mom had a miscarriage....and 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 HE DOESN'T EVEN CARE!!!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 I REALLY JUST WANNA GET A FUCKING GUN OR SOMETHING AND JUST END MY STUPID PATHETIC LIFE!!!# 🔫🔫🔫🔫🔫