Hey everyone it's Runa here and ever since my summer has started its been very depressing and hard on my mind and emotional state.... then when I wake up I find this....

Like wtf really? I have to deal with this out of the blue and first thing when I wake up? That's messed up.... if anyone u can decipher what he means by that text pls pls tell me idk what to do.
Pls I want to know what this means

This is Runa Shadow requesting help.