This one....is kinda...depressing...but....I hurt...I hurt a lot...I...I have been through a lot..I mean look, I've lost my mom and my grandpa...I was...close to him..very close...I try to be happy for you guys..but sometimes I can't...don't worry, I'm not leaving...I just..had to get that off..lately I've been..depressed, lonely, and afraid...I don't feel suicidal...just depressed...I really need to talk to someone...about..everything...sorry if this was depressing...