Honestly I really don't know how to feel anymore...friend of mine used to tell me I'm too nice an truthfully....I'm not nice enough I do this because I am always hiding behind a mask every now an again someone I know may see a small shimmer from behind what they believe is truly me but then it quickly goes. I act like this to help keep others smiling I would rather not have others be in my place. I've experienced some horrible stuff, stuff I've never gonna repeat there's a reason I hate certain words specifically a word an it's synonyms. If you know me I may have told you but I've only told 3 people in my life an only 4 people know.