I sat on my bed staring into space. I had messed up a lot and a lot is going to be destroyed.
My dream to go to my sister's university is shattered because the school needs someone who is whole and trustworthy. And I have made every one lose their trust in me. And mostly because I  can't go to a school far from home because I'm now unhealthy and a sick person. I've lost a lot of blood. My parents are helping me gain back the blood I've lost but that will not solve any problem because I have to keep going to the hospital for check ups. The pains in my abdomen had not subsided. I can't do any hard work. All I do is to sleep in my room or cry as if it will solve anything.

But I am glad and blessed for having a family like this. My mom still love me so much. But she doesn't fully trust me. My dad had forgiven me and my big sister Elsie let it go and became my lovely sister again. She always come to my room since I can't afford to go to hers.
But that doesn't mean I'm happy. I will still leave in sorrows and pain.

I heard a knock on my door. It's probably not Elsie or mom cos mom's gone to work and Elsie will just bump into my room without knocking. It won't be dad cos he rarely comes to my room and he's at work by this time. The knock came again. I would have let the person in if it was one of those normal days but after that experience, I was insanely scared of everything.

The door opened slowly and my heart stopped.
It was my best friend. My soul sister.
Before I knew it, I was in her arms. I cried in her arms as she comforted me.
"Oh Nadine, I'm really sorry. I really am." I sobbed. My abdomen was still aching me as I hugged her but it was worth it. The last thing I imagined will happen is being so lucky for my best friend whom I've betrayed to bump into my room with opened arms and smiling face.
"It's fine." She smiled as I finally backed away and we both slumped into my bed.

"And that was how it all happened. I understand you are the good thing in my life. You left and everything went wrong. I'm sorry, Nad. I really am. I know I don't deserve you again." I said as tears strolled down my cheeks. I've narrated everything to her. She was sad and sympathized with me.

"I understand. We've been friends for a long time now. And I know part of it is my fault. I should have stand by you even when you were stubborn and also I was too boring for a friend. I'm sorry." she smiled.
I hugged her again tightly. Boring or not, she's my best friend my soul sister.
"I'm sorry, you'll have to live with the regret forever. But I'm here we could manage it together." She said in my hair as she brushed her hand over my back soothingly.
Yes even if I become happy again, I will still live with the regret forever and I will continue to cry when I remember my flaw.
   But the best thing is I have my best friend back.

     The End.....