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Did she really leave me to those 2 choices?

I wang to be around MY baby. Raise her right and love her like I never was...

But I need Maverick with me.

I can't leave my baby... I dare not be a spitting image of my mom in a different way. My baby needs me... her mother.

And Maverick needs his sister...

I still wonder if a damn house and a million dollars is worth forcing me to give up my baby and separate me from my little brother whom I been taking care of since he was born.

"You have until the baby is born to decide. Even then I will give you a week." She said standing up. I looked at her and hurt was all I was feeling right now.

"Make sure she's showered and given proper clothing. If she needs anything you let me know. You will have an appointment set with the family doctor to check on the baby." She said. "Goodnight and think hard.." She whispered. Her and her daughters left the room.

Why did I have to be put into the situation?

Oh yea... that bitch Nubia.

I wonder what she told Maverick.
She probably told him I abandoned him or I didn't want to take care of him. Who wouldn't if someone basically takes someone's else's child. Sibling in my case.

I miss him. His smile, his laugh... the confidence he has, the love he gives, and the care he shows. Nothing or no one will ever replace Maverick and I'm going to get him back.

I need to make the right decision...

Although it'll hurt me.

Two Months Later

I was sitting on the bed watching my stomach move. She's been very active. The last two months have been ok. They treat me well. Feed me...

My back has been killing me and my feet have been swelling. The doctor said that it's normal but if it's to unbearable then I should see her again.

Ricky's family are still stuck up snobs but they have been giving me more respect. They have been letting me decide on things for my baby as for right now but I know it's a facade and sooner or later they'll go behind what I say. 

They did give me the right to name her but the baby has to have Ricky's last name.

Complete bullshit.

Ricky's last name isn't Wayne. It's Davis...

Kaelee La'reign Davis

Kaylee is who encouraged me to keep this baby and she, the baby, has changed me for the better. Believe it or not, I'm always thinking of Kaylee. I still miss her like crazy.

I wish she was still here...

I have three and a half weeks, really four, to make my decision.

I've already made it but I'm still second guessing it. It's really hard.

You're brother or you're daughter?

I sighed. I put my hand on my stomach and felt her kick. She's going to be a happy child. An energetic one and a bad ass.

"One month..." I whispered.

Nubia

It's been two months since I practically gave Macey away. It haunts me...

I didn't want to do it but I don't know what got into me.

Maverick has been completely depressed and I didn't think at his age he would ever be like this.

He stays in his room, he doesn't talk at school and he continues to disrespect females, and he doesn't get along with Casey.

Yea.. me and Casey really did get back together. She promised to clean up her act and she's been doing good lately. She's 5 months and she's having a boy. We're naming him Cairo. I'm part Egyptian and we both visited the city two years ago when I went to learn more about my real family.

Anyways, Maverick has been upset ever since I told him Macey didn't want to take care of him. It's like he doesn't understand why because she has been taking care of him since he was born.

Then I feel bad for letting her trust me and I do this to her. Not just her but her baby. A baby I actually wanted. But there's no going back now. I just have to move past it and move on. Soon Maverick will get back into his way he was before, me and Casey will be married and having a new baby.

I went up to Maverick's room. I knocked and heard nothing. I do worry about him. He's been super distant as well.

"Maverick you ok?"

Nothing...

I opened his door and found him stepping on a step stool near the window. "Maverick what the hell?!" I ran to him scooping him up quickly. I threw him on the bed and hurriedly closed the window and locked the seals.

"The hell is wrong with you Maverick that is dangerous and you could have severely hurt yourself!" I yelled at him.

His eyes were red.

"Why Maverick?" My heart was still racing.

"My mommy no want me..Macey no want me... and I can't be the best unc-unc ever.." He mumbled sniffling. "I want nana and daddy.." He whispered.

My heart just broke.

"Maverick..." I said softly.

I attempted to hug him but he pushed me. "Leave me alone!" He got up and ran out the room before I could stop him.

I really did this to him...

Macey

"Thought of any names?" Renee asked. That's Ricky's mother.

"I have..." I said. "Kaelee La'reign," I said.

Her face scrunched. "Is that-" She started but quickly hushed when I eyed her.

"Very well then.." she said.

"Anything you need?" She asked.

I shook my head. "Alright. Later on we will be having an announcement party for the gender of the baby. I figured now would be a great time being that your coming close to your due date." She smiled.

"And I can't attend?"

"No you will stay here. I am the one announcing it. We will have someone broadcasting it so you may watch. I'm sure you will watch all the fans of your daughter." She said.

They act like she's being born with every damn talent any human can have.

"Oh alright.. I guess." I said. I honestly like the fact that my daughter will have support physically and financially but I don't like the attention because they're basically going to raise her into a lifestyle where she isn't the slightest of humble and that everything goes her way. That money makes the world go round.

I'm not with it.

"Have a good day sweetie.." She smiled and left the room.

Kaylee

It's been a while.

I hope you haven't forgotten about me.

I been alright being up in here. Doing better for myself. Doing educational programs and reading up on books.

All I ever think about is getting out and getting Macey back. I miss my little man too. I have pictures of them on the wall next to my bunk. My morning inspiration.

Shit my everyday inspiration.

When I get out I want to find her and keep her with me but I don't think it'll be good. She probably still hates me and thinks that I'm dead. Maybe she's doing better for herself and me coming into her life might alter things.

I've been thinking about getting out lately because my lawyer, the best fucking one on planet Earth, got me going through a program that I never knew existed, where every book I read takes a month off my time, every class I pass with an A is two months, and every job I work in here is four months. I managed on reading a shit load of books... which are very good by the way. Honestly I enjoy reading now.

Anyway, since my second month in here I've been taking five classes all at the same time and I work 2 jobs inside the prison. The books are what's adding up my taken off time.

But good behavior is helping too. I get out in two months. This has basically been school and I'm glad I was able to go through this program because I'm going to completely change my life. It'll be hard because every knows me and what I did. I might have to start over in a different country. Hell I don't know. But I'll figure it out.

I just want my life again. My first love.. everything I had but in a better life that I'm working on building.

Nothing can hold me back now