"You know I only want you." I text you as Kameron and I sit in a booth at McDonald's.

"Why is he mad?" Kam asks through a mouthful of chicken nugget.

"He gets kind of jealous. He's been hurt in the past and he has trust issues." I lick the ice cream off my spoon. Normally, I'd be worrying myself sick wondering if you were going to stop talking to me again but I'm too high.

"Then prove it. Stop hanging out with guys." You respond after a few short minutes.

"Kam is my only friend." I type out as Kam pushes some fries towards me. "He doesn't see me in any way other than his friend."

"I know how guys think, he only wants to fuck. Drop him or I drop you." I read as I shovel a handful of fries in my mouth.

I peer up at Kam as I think. He'd been there for me through thick and thin. He was the only person I trusted completely and could rely on.

"I never ask any thing like that from you. I always have complete trust in you. " I avoid giving you a direct response.

"I can't trust you. You're a slut." I blink in surprise, my heart aching as what you said registers in my mind.

I swallow hard, and decide to let you cool down. Kam notices the look on my face.

"Saint being a dick again?" He asks, setting his phone on the table to give me his attention.

"Kinda." I say, cause I don't want to paint you in a bad light. I want you and I to last as long as possible and I want my friends to understand why I feel so intensely for you. It's hard when you're jealous so often.

"He's not good for you." Kam leans back, rubbing his stomach.

I look down at my hands, because I know it's probably true. But fuck - Saint, you make me feel so crazy.

No one makes me feel like you.

I love just even being around you. I get so nervous I start shaking. When you hold my hand - I feel whole.

You gotta feel the same. This can't be one sided.

So I deal with your mood swings. I deal with your occasional harsh words.

Cause I want this to work. I feel like you deserve the world, and you're only an asshole because you feel like you don't deserve anything good.

You'll learn to trust me, I know you will.